HOPE

Chapter 23

After that Jake explain to me how he found out that he was gay when he was in high school and Peter had been his best friend since kinder garden. He couldn't keep it hidden from Peter so when he told him than he is gay Peter's response had been "Me too." And ever since then, they had been together. They both sound really in love, it's so romantic. 

I ask something that I have been curious about since I first heard this. "Why do you care about me so much?" 

"Huh?" He looks as me, a little surprised.

"You care a lot about me. Whether I'm okay or not, you always ask me that. I'm not saying that You shouldn't do it or anything. I'm just asking why?"

"Because I see you as my little sister." He smiles as he explains. "See? I've always wanted a sister. So when I saw you, my sisterly love came up and I have been concerned abut you cause of that."

I mentally slap myself for thinking that he likes me. 

We hug and I promised him again that I won't tell anyone and I didn't even tell Seth anything. 

The management board doesn't know that me and Seth are a couple. That includes Mr. James as well. Relationships between co-workers aren't allowed so we could get fired if they find out. No one would rat us out if we didn't do anyone trouble, right? I'm sure no one will anyway. If we don't do anything bad to someone, they won't get the need to take revenge from us by ratting us out. So I guess things will go fine. 

We can't be together during work time cause there are CCTV everywhere and we can't risk being caught So, the past 3 days, we went to the ice cream shop after work and well... We end up kissing. Sometimes we don't even get ice creams to eat. 

We haven't gone further than kissing. I know we are both happy with the way things are and I'm not sure if I can handle being with him like that yet. But making out with him is the best feeling ever. 

So at 1 p.m. today, we get the rest of the day off.

We take his car and drive all the way up to my place. We sing songs on the way and laughed a lot. If was like we were going on a road trip. But getting closer to my apartment, I'm getting really nervous. My hands start to shake and I started sweating. I'm scared of taking him into my place where I once took Veron in and he ruined my life. I don't want him to see the tiny apartment. I don't want him to run into Veron. I know I haven't seen Veron in like a month but, a part of me is scared thinking that this maybe the day I see him after along time. My luck just likes messing with me. 

Seth must have sensed that I was getting agitated that he glances over at me and ask, "Hey, what's wrong, honey?" He keeps a hand on my shaking ones. 

"Hope, baby what's wrong?" I shake my head and point in the direction of the parking lot, right next to my building. He parks the car and then without even switching the engine off, he removes his seat belt and turns to me. I keep staring at my apartment building just scared to look at his blue eyes. "Your hands are cold."

I take a deep breath and smile at him, avoiding his eyes. I shake my head. "No. It's nothing. Let's go in?" 

He looks worried but he reluctantly nods and starts getting out the car. 

My legs are literally shaking. I know that I'm panicking for useless reasons considering that there's so little chance of running into Veron. How would he know to show up at my place, today?

My heart started beating fast and I repeat, "It's Seth." over and over again to calm myself down. 

He doesn't say anything to me as he follows me to my apartment. Inside the building, I stand in front of my door, holding the keys with shaking hands. He stays quiet giving me time which I'm really grateful for. I take a deep calming breath and open the door, stepping inside in one quick motion. I can't hesitate for long. I don't want him to start doubting me, which I'm sure he already does.