I don't know where I'm going its been awhile I believe. am I alive or dead?
The light is bright
Am I dead?
I'm having flash backs of all the drugs of Pete leaving the band Emily so sweet but hurting so bad after Brendon's death the birth of Bronx Pete leaving California Kelly my girlfriend leaving me after finding the cocaine moving into my moms basement Patrick marring Maddie, Emily marring Ryan and getting pregnant, my car drifting over the yellow line, the headlights of the car on the other side of the road, the crash, blood, ambulance, surgery, visits from Emily, my doctor Joe, Patrick once, then most recently Emily and Pete, then just Pete and its been awhile
I still don't know if I'm alive or if this is my path to dying
I miss all of them that's when the door opens to my room I still don't know if I'm dead because this has to be a dream Kelly is here
"Andy, I love you" she says
Silence
"Please come back" she says
She pulls out a box it's tall and thin
She opens it and pulls out the pee stick
She turns it to me
"Look, I'm pregnant, Andy your a dad, if you would just wake up" she says she puts it back in her bag
"It's your choice" she says grabbing my hand kissing my head and leaving
All the memories of her kissing me the way she just kissed my comatose body
She always kissed my head after sex
But she's the reason I OD'ed on the drugs that and the band splitting
My choice?
Why would I come back to a world that I wanted to leave for a reason the reason being her and losing the greatest thing in my life
I tried to kill myself
Or did I?
The memories go blurry and everything goes black and then white and black again
Beep........
Flat line
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Ryan Ross's lover and Pete Wentz's baby mama
Fanfiction(Sequel to my first story patrick stump's sister) after three years Emily recovers from Brendons death and she gets together with Ryan. Pete only ever visits at brith days and holidays. Bronx loves Ryan like a father even though he is his step fat...
