always

chapter 7

jjs POV

"baby im so sorry. ill kill him. oh god my sweet jessica im so sorry." he said as he cried

"daddy im good. it could be alot worse. ill get through this bullshit." even though i was hurting i need to console him and make sure he was okay. i wouldnt be okay if my dad wasnt okay.

"baby i hate this. im never letting you out of my sight again. i hate it but you need to go to the hospital"

"no not hospital theyll ask to much, take dna and shit. i dont want that."

"ill figure something out jj. can we go to the clubhouse or somewhere so chibs can look you over? im scared to know what dean seen when he first came over here."

"i dont want you to see me daddy. im fine. ill let chibs help clean my cuts but thats it. ill go get antibiotics later, come up with something."

"baby i need to know that you're okay. that youll be okay. i dont want you hurt. i dont want any of this for you"

"dad ill be fine. im sure ill always be some type of fucked up from this shit but ill be fine. im sure yall are ready to rest from the ride... im sorry for everything daddy"

"baby dont be sorry. ive missed the hell out of you. i wish you would have told me you were leaving. we've all been so lost without you baby. theres so much i want to ask and talk to you about but ill wait. im just happy to have you back in my arms." he said kissing my head

"daddy theres so much shit going through my head. im so sorry i just took off like that. i promise ill explain everything once im ready. lets go. im ready to see the guys."

"we all want answers baby but when youre ready." he said grabbing my hand.

"theyre going to hate me daddy. i cant take it and theyre going to pity me because of what happened."

"no baby theyre going to be angry because of what happened and hurt. youre our princess, our jj. they love you always." he told me as we walked towards everyone.

i looked up and looked at everyone. i didnt realize until now how much i missed them. i see opie and i want to run to him, he really is my best friend. i wave for him to come to me so i dont have walk more. hes careful when he gets close to me.

"ive missed you opie. i wanted to run to you but my feet hurt. so will you carry me?" i asked

he laughed "yeah but im demanding a hug first."

"be easy with her." my dad said real quick.

"just dont touch my upper back please."

"what the hell happened jj! if itll hurt ill wait now come here, where can i hold you?"

we tried him hold me with my legs wrapped around him but that hurt my stomach to much and put to much pressure on my back. he ended up carrying me bridal style, it was awkward because he was trying not to touch my shoulder blades i just had to tell him i would be okay.

we got to the group. i look at my guys and they all look worried. i mumble a sorry.

"wha' happened to ya jess?" chibs asked

"she needs to see a doctor. yall got one for the club right?" tig said looking at dean who nodded

"i said no. i know who can help." i said they looked at me waiting "take me to dolly"

everyone looks confused while dean laughs "of all times you want to go to the strip club"

"of course. youll see when we get there."