Un Novelás - The Stories

If There Was No Tomorrow

AN:
This fanfiction is not supposed to disrespect Marzia/ Gab in any way. It's only a ship :)

( Felix)
Everything felt like a dream. Out of nowhere, everything suddenly became reality. My dreams were real. They were what I've asked for, right? I thought it was gonna make me the happiest man in the world. Since I hoped that was gonna make me forget him.

It didn't. The pain still was the same. It crawled inside my heart, and I felt like.. I've started to fall away. I felt like my heart became a glass. I've closed myself and I could felt how my heart shattered. The process itself was painful. I lost every part of what felt like something I've granted. I was so sure that I was always gonna be the one chosen.

I didn't knew. I had no idea he hid so many things from me. I had no clue that I suffocated him. I made him feel the need for air. But not in a good meaning, he felt like I stole every bit of his needed oxygen. Our relationship was something what everyone would call perfect. It was far away from that word.

What even were those? Words. That we putted in sentences. That hitted out soul,made us feel the certain way.  Every little thing had it's own track. For me every word felt like it didn't had even any meaning. I threw them around,I talked like a crazy.

With empty meaning. No soul, no feeling and no sound. Just silence. It was like a invisible knife that slid into a heart, and got stuck. Nothing else could describe the pain I felt after I lost him. I've wasted my time. I tried to explain. I had so many things in my mind. Sometimes it felt like a little circle.

I came back. And again, another circle. There it was. My medicine. Little drug. I held on it like on my dearest life, on the feeling like I was gonna die without that one suffocating feeling. Love wasn't golden. It was everything put from little gestures. Every thing that was created, that little thoughtful bond. That seemed almost like it was written into the conversation.

Eye contact. For some people nothing to talk, like what even to think or mention about it?  For me it was so way more to express through it. I could read the emotions like a book that was open for me. Different people, different stories. But he was the one who had the most expressive eyes. Like there was so much life. The life seemed to come out of his eyes and spread the positivity through the room. It kept the room alive. It kept me alive.

"Si tu te vas"
If you leave. These words meant at the beginning just a part of song. The song I've heard a lot of times in radio, but I never really got the real meaning. I never tried to understand the hidden meaning behind it. I just seemed to like the catchy words of a language that I didn't even spoke. Spanish was one of languages I've wanted to know, but I never really tried to learn this one, and I thought that I didn't needed to. And he was always someone who seemed fascinated.

Fascinated. Funny word, isn't it? This is what I've felt, at least at the start. The fire between us was so alive, like something we ignited through an accident. It all began through a little touch. It didn't even lasted a few more minutes. Still-  it managed to make me addicted. It felt like a little shot of happiness for my brain, because back then I felt broken. I said to myself that no one was gonna understand the storm inside my soul. I used to blame myself for the all incidents that happened to me. All the bad things that I ever did or said. It felt like a dark side of me.

I was scared, it was a hurricane of sudden uncontrolled feeling. The warmth of his hand, the touch of his fingers that have touched my hand. Every word that he spoke. It sounded like his voice made me feel the uncertain way. I didn't knew how to call this feeling. I wanted to stop the feeling, but the more I got into it, the more I fell into it. It was like a river.