Random stuff I find in my google docs account

Pfft a dream i apparently had

So I found this doc with this dream I had... it was really weird and confusing. So some heads up, J was this guy I liked(it was so stupid I hated that year. also that weird year when I still thought I was 100% cis-straight lol) and LC was my middle school.

Here goes absolutely nothing but weirdness:
"So I had this dream where it started off with Spider-Man fighting this whatever and somehow I got captured with this other guy but we went to this red guys place and they found us and treated us well and told us all this stuff bout politics and we decided we liked their way and we agreed and went back to our lives. When we did? Idk why but the red dude leader was driving our really fast train through our town. No on was on the train but this blueish guy was trying to kill him. E was slowly going forwards and started whispering stuff to the guy idk. But somehow after that In a setting of our LC field, i had challenged him to a discus throwing like they did in the old Greek days but we were trying to aim for the head. I honestly don't know how it got to that but it did. So anyways blue guy decided to use plates like the red ones made of ceramics. He was trying to aim for my head and kill me and I was just trying to dodge and I didn't know what to do at first and I didn't want to kill anyone but that was the only way I could stay alive. Later I saw him and I thought he was strangling a child but it turned out he had drawn elephants on her hands. Checkered elephants. I realized he had people on his side but the game went on. Then while people were getting plates and pots for him, I had this one yellow plate and I was kneeling trying to take a breather and I gave it to J to hold it for me. He was kinda my friend idok but I knew that he could be in the other side but I was stubborn and just wanted a breather from holdings the plates. He took it, walked over to blue guy, and stacked it on his stack of plates to use to try and kill me. I was like ok that was expected. Then this other guy idk who but he gives me a plate and I'm like thanks but then J takes it and trys to whack me with it? So i get up and were fighting over it he's trying to kill me cuz he's on the other side. I'm yelling it's not about just us this was never about us it's just those two(pointing at the red and blue guy) and their stupid politics! And he's like yeah but it's about us things have changed between us between last year can't u tell? I'm crying by now. Me realizing I was such a horrible person and realizing I'm a terrible friend to everyone. I'm lying on the ground screaming no and crying all the while I'm trying not to die as J try's to get the plate from me. a(my other friend) had come with me when he had started talking but was standing there half helping half not knowing what to do. Then J just drags me along with the plate and I'm singing a verse from million reasons while crying from betrayal and hype for myself and he starts half singing it along with me but then I stop singing because I'm crying too much and then he is singing the part that says I've got a hundred million reasons to walk away and I'm thinking I need to sing that last part to him and he needs to too but then I wake up.

Thoughts:
He's not really my friend and he kinda hates me probably cuz of all that drama last year. I had other thoughts but not rn so yeah,"

Pfft wth was I thinking... sixth and seventh grade were not my best years...

How was ur guises middle school years? Hopefully much better than mine?

I just realize I name bombed a bunch of people. Ok fixed it.