There are lots of times that I feel like I'm totally useless to the world around me...
I feel as though there is no purpose to my existence...
As if I'm here to just... breathe...wasting the vital oxygen...
It really gets to me sometimes...
I zone out from the world around me and just... get locked up by my mind...
Throwing me into a cell and throwing away the key; cackling as I scream to get out...
I punch the bars that entrap me until I end up bursting into a crying mess...
I'm trapped for a few moments... which seems like eternity...
My thoughts are my cell mates...They take the wind out of me.... tear my insides apart until I'm left lying on the floor... pale and helpless...
I dont even remotely resemble a human anymore... I'm just blubbering some kind of made up language that only I understand... face to the floor... eyes closed... breathing heavy...
My thoughts never shut up... they keep going... telling me that I'm nothing... waste of space...
I try to get up... but I get kicked further into the ground below...
But... then I hear a click... the opening of a lock...
The door swings open and I'm met with a light...
I'm snapped back to reality...
Usually... its a friend... laughing that I just drifted off...
"What are you doing, you Silly Panda?"
I feel as though I'm on the verge of tears but... I can't help but force them away...
Hearing the laugh of someone close to me... Seeing the smile.... that's that light in the darkness...
It's my purpose...
"Oh... I was just thinking about the important questions in life... like 'What's for Dinner?'"
The laugh that follows walks me out of my imprisonment and shows me the light of day...
The Sun...
I finally feel my cheeks warm up and a smile make its way to my lips...
It shuts my thoughts up... knowing they have no power anymore...
I'm brought back to life
And I'm given a Purpose...
To make people smile and laugh.... to help them enjoy their lives and to make sure they're happy...
And it's the best feeling in the world...
