Self harm and suicidal thoughts

#37

I've been cheated once before

By this thing called death

Who's to say it won't happen again

They say it's extremely rare

But it's happened to me once

Lost the greatest thing in my life

How can you say I'm wrong to be afraid

How can you tell me not to worry

The last time I went through this

It ended in death and sadness

So I feel I have the right to be scared

When I'm scared I don't eat

I physically can't

I am so tired that I can't even function

Why are panic attacks so draining