The Time Heaven

CHAPTER 1: Time

Joseph was seating alone while writing his journal in a bench of a public plaza while observing every people in that place. There were those casual people; a homeless man fixing his belongings in his old bag, a man who is at Joseph's age and was also alone seating on the ground. A group of student enthusiastically rehearsing a dance performance, and a couple holding hands together. In the faces of those people there were those who were looking happy, sad and some of them were like a stoic. If you look into their eyes you would wonder and asked; how does it feel being in that sort of life? Seeing the world in their point of view and experience life in their own perspective?

How does it feel having their time given to me? I wonder how they are spending the life and the time that God has given them. Joseph ponders on those questions.

As Joseph was watching and observing them, there came an ignition in his mind and a strange question that made him ponder since he have think about it;

"Does time Exist? If time exists why do we exist in time and why did God give us Time for us to exist?" Joseph asked himself.

This was just what goes in Joseph's thoughts, that every time he asks for these questions it would just open another question and another hundred and more questions. These questions were all mysterious and are hard to answer.

In a moment while watching those people, Joseph remembers how he has spent his life out of discouragement and pain. He envies those people who have enjoyed the time of their lives and that they have fully lived their lives.

As he was watching those people, it reminded him on how people came in and deeply affected his life. After a moment, Joseph hears a ring of a bill from a nearby Church, it gives him indications that a Sunday mass is about to start. As he hears the bill another question has ignited his mind. "Does God also exist in time?

Joseph thinks deeply, he closes his eye and imagines how God exist but even as he closes his eye thinking about it; he couldn't still fathom the mystery of God's existence. As he ponders in his own question about God's existence, he then opens his eye and opens a page on his journal and write;

JOURNAL:

TIME DOES NOT EXIST in God's State, he lives in eternity and God doesn't need Time for Him to exist. It is God's divine perfection that he doesn't need time for him to exist. He is everything; HE is the past, present and the future. He created everything in seven days and by his creation there exist time and we exist in time. A God who is eternal must stand wholly outside the realm of time and since God is infinitely powerful it shows out that time doesn't exist in God's level of infinity. God also gives us freedom for us to spend it with the time that He has given us. Freedom is the handmaid of time and we use them hand by hand and inseparable.

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As Joseph finished writing his journal he noticed a text in the next page; Joseph flips the next page of his journal and found a strange writing on it and it reads;

JOURNAL

When Joseph was a Child, he was being bullied by children around him. His only friend was Erika his neighbor. Joseph has no other friend and Erika like Joseph was also bulled by children around her, especially girl classmates. One afternoon, Joseph and Erika were happily playing a ball game by passing the ball back to each other. Joseph squish the ball but before he threw it back to Erika, Lloyd and his group grab the ball out from Josephs hand. Joseph motioned to grab the ball back but he couldn't just do it because Lloyd was just bigger compare to him. Lloyd manage to pass the ball to his friend and to another but no matter how hard Joseph tries to follow where the ball will be pass next, he couldn't still grab it. The next moment, Lloyd threw the ball into Josephs face hardly that it makes Joseph cry. As Joseph was now crying, Lloyd still manage to hit Josephs head again and again while he and his friend were laughing so hard like there will was no end in their laughing. Erika was watching them as they were beating Joseph so hardly. Joseph turned to see Erika as hard as he could and he noticed a tear in Erika's eyes. Joseph felt guilty and helpless and he managed to fight back which made him receive more beating. Erika run towards Joseph and give Joseph a big hug, Lloyd's group stop and leave. 

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After reading the text, Joseph got surprise and astonished; it happens a long time ago and he does not remember writing those words. The content did happen in his life and the handwriting is the same as his own hand writing. What's strange about the journal is that; it was written in someone's point of view.

Joseph tries to flip the next pages of his journal but he couldn't find any writing, he flips back the page and read it again. The writing on that page is so accurate that he couldn't think of any person who has written it down. He has never shared to anyone that occasion with that girl named Erika.

Joseph read the writing for more than two times and noticed that the way it was written was in a second person point of view or that the one who is writing is like telling a story. Joseph used to write his journal in a first person point of view. Joseph think that it might be someone but; "who?" Joseph got more confused of who is that person and how did he knew about all of those moment in his personal life.

As Joseph read the writing for the third time he began to be confused of himself and thought that there were something missing in his life, like an experience long forgotten and wondered that somewhere; out there, there is a different life he have lived. That the life he's living now is a long dream and he has not awakened yet.

Moment later, Joseph closed his journal and went to the church to attend the Sunday mass.

The church was all the same as he gazed into the old ecclesiastical building where he grew up. The old staircase was still the same even if it was just painted recently, the windows; though the old stained glass was now removed still reflect a trace of a once wondrous work of art that he used to admire; reflecting a beautiful image of the Virgin Mary together with a choir of angels on her side.

The church still gives Joseph a kind of irresistible nostalgia every time he takes a glimpse in some of its corner. It still prints a fascinating memory of his childhood that he could no longer go back, a memory that he used to share to a friend he adored.