One-shots

Without U.

Without U.

This is the first year I came here and you were not there.

One year has passed since you left me. A year had past since I got called from your mother, with the news, you were in the hospital. I came as fast as I could just to hear your heartbeat stopping, to hear that my husband wont be able to open his eyes anymore. I couldn't even say goodbye to you. You were laying there at the cold table saying nothing, I just heard my inner voice, a loud scream and how my mother tried to calm me down. Unfortunately she didn't manage to calm me down. The next thing I can remember after that evening, is how I got up in a hospital room alone. I was hoping that everything was a bad dream, a really bad nightmare, that the Doctor would come into my room and tell me that my Husband had an accident and died.

After that incident I was no longer myself. There were nights that I only spend with crying. With your death, I realized how lonely I really am. I cried and asked God why he took you away from me, why he left me alone, and what I should do without you in my life.

But my mom and friends have been trying to help me, and I'm feeling a little better. But still a year later without you at my side and I still love you.

I will come here every year as we have planned. Here we met for the first time had long discussions. We had several meetings here, whether it was cold or warm we always had fun when we came here. Here you asked me if I want to be your wife. This bank in nowhere, is for me a place with memories of us.

I love you Namjoon.

"IT BREAKS MY HEART TO WRITE HIS NAME"