amnesia • zdh

you

Clarke's pov: "Clarke!" Lilly exclaimed, running into my room.

"Yes, Lils?" I asked, chuckling at my little sister being so excited.

"Your boyfriend is here." Lilly giggled.

"Carter's here?" I asked, confused because we didn't have plans to hang out.

"Carter isn't my boyfriend." I added looking at her.

"No, not Carter." She said.

"Zach's here." She continued.

"Zach isn't my boyfriend." I said.

"Well he's downstairs." She said shrugging and ran back out of my room.

I furrowed my eyebrows together, confused.

Why is he here?

I followed her out of my room and headed downstairs to find Zach sitting on the couch in the living room.

"Zach?" I questioned.

Zach looked up at me and sheepishly smiled.

"Hey." Zach said standing up from the couch.

"How'd you find where I live?" I asked.

"Your sister gave Reese your address when we were eating ice cream that one day." He said.

I nodded, taking in this new information.

"So what are you doing here?" I asked.

"I just wanted to check up on you, I haven't seen you in awhile." He said.

"I've been busy." I said.

"Even too busy for counseling?" He asked.

"Kind of," I said. "I haven't been going."

"Why?" He asked.

"I feel like I've gotten somewhat better so I just keep cancelling it." I said.

He nods his head slowly, as if he's trying to process what I'm saying.

"How's Carter?" He asked.

I smiled.

"He's great." I said.

"Um that's good, I'm glad." He said putting his hands in his jean pockets.

"So why are you actually here?" I asked.

Zach sighed and looked down.

"For the first time in a year, I have started to actually feel somewhat happy." He said.

"I actually want to be alive." He continued.

"And its all because of you." He said looking back up at me.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"You brought me back to life," He said. "I felt practically dead and felt completely numb before I met you."

I shook my head.

"I didn't help you." I said.

"Yes, you did." He said.

"You managed to fix yourself, it wasn't because of me." I stated.

"I'm not fixed, I'll never be fixed." He said.

"That's not true." I said.

"You helped me start to move on from Elizabeth-" He said before pausing.

I furrowed my eyebrows confused.

"For the first time in a year, I actually think I'm starting to like someone." Zach said.

"Who?" I asked.

He stayed silent for a moment before turning around and heading towards the front door. He turned towards me once he opened the door.

"You." He answered softly.

And with that he walked out the door and left.