Something Different

Day One-Part One

7:15am:                                                                                                                                                                                       My councilor said i should start writing stuff down; like whats going on, with school and family just normal day things. I'm Rose I am 16 and i don't know what the fuck I am doing with my life, i sound just like every other person in the world right now, don't I. Now days my life just seems so complicated, I feel like i have to much to do; all of it is stressing me out. Today is my first day of school, Freshman year. The bottom of the school, as soon as you walk in you are title. You are either popular, or an athlete which corresponds with popular, or a loser which is every other stereotypical group you can think of. You know the so called the lame people. In middle school i started off so called pretty well. Having a bunch of friends and being popular. Then drama started and and i fell down to the bottom of the food chain. I realized that i honestly don't need bunches of friends. Just a couple good close friends and you will be fine. Oh shit I didn't realize the time. I have to get going to school. 

7:55: Man I swear i thought i was going to be late, but in fact i'm actually early. Some how i had enough time to get dressed, pack up my backpack, drive to school, and still be early. I decided that since its the first day of school i should be totally be my unoriginal self and wear my oversized My Chemical Romance T-shirt, and some absolutely amazing purple jeans. Just me here trying to be unnoticed, I look totally normal other than the fact that you honestly can't tell if i'm a girl or a guy. My hair is almost like Brendon Urie, and my clothes are always oversized. Basically everywhere i go, i almost always get the question. " Are you a girl or a guy." I hate that question. It still proves that we live in a gender binary world. I am Human is that a good enough answer? Of course it isn't you want to know whats in my pants. Well it isn't your concern. I tell people that my pronouns are They and Them; because honestly at this point I really don't know what gender i am, If any. Then it leads to They and Them means two people that can't be used as pronouns, and after a while it leads to them calling me IT. Now that it a dangerous word, understand. When you call someone IT, thats dehumanizing. It makes you feel like you aren't a real person that your are nothing. Well I have to get to class. Bye for now

12:15: So its lunch now, I haven't really talked to anyone yet. I'm extremely socially awkward to the point where i'm hiding int the bathroom so i don't have to talk with anyone. First period went well, I had algebra. I'm not the best when it comes to math. I can never understand what i'm supposed to do. Then I had english, i've always loved english, because i'm pretty good with writing. Third period was p.e Mr.kove just went over the rules of grading, I don't like P.E its too social. And now i'm at lunch...Sort of                                                                                                                            12:35: A few girls walked in a bit ago, they just looked at me weirdly and ignored me. Just the way it should happen. Till one girl opened her mouth and said, "Lets go girl, we shouldn't bother the thing down there." THING, another word just like it. I just want this day to end

END OF DAY ONE PART 1