Blind to love

Chapter 5

Tina's POV

I just didn't know what do to anymore, I just don't like this pained feeling

It hurts so much, I just don't wanna feel anything anymore

Everything just hurts so much

~Buzzzzzzzzzz~

I looked down on my phone to see a message from Jessica

I decided to just read it

Jessica
You are worthless, you know that right? You couldn't tell Jisung who you were because you are because you know that you are worthless
It also seems like he believes how worthless you are
There is no need for worthless people like you, just go die in a ditch you worthless bitch

I couldn't believe it....
She is actually right, I am worthless

"Sissy let's go, Unicorn and your boyfriend is waiting" Grace said grabbing my hand pulling me to go in her direction

Grace... she's too precious, she must be happy and not worry

Yeeun has already done so much for me and Grace, I must not let her know

And

Jisung....
He cannot know who I am...

I'll just fake it

Yes, I must fake it...
From this day on, I'll put on my mask and never take it of again... I'll build my walls up higher, I'll allow my thorns to grow and protect me
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"Sissy" Grace asked tilting her head to the side, I simply put on smile

"Let's go" I said and she smiled, "Yeah!" She shouted and we ran to the car
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Yeeun's POV

I was driving to our next destination which was the movie

I looked at the rear mirror to look at the two, because they were a little to quiet

And to my surprise they were sitting far away from each other, looking outside the windows

I giggled a little since this reminded me of when they were young...

"Ti-- I mean Rose, Why you sad" I asked quickly covering up my mistake

"I'm not sad" she said, "I'm just looking out the window" she raising her eyebrow at me in question

"Oh sorry, and you Jisung why you said" I asked, "I'm not sad as well, I'm also just looking out the window" he said not sparing a glance at me

"Look, I'm not an idiot-" "Who would have thought" Jisung mumbled loudly making Grace and Tina laugh "Hey!!!" I shouted completely offended

"Anyways, I know you two fought" I said and there was complete silence in the car

I smirked knowing that I am right

"So what was the argument about" I asked, "Its nothing important" Jisung said in an aggressive tone, telling me to back off, but I was even more intrigued

"So it is something serious" I said and I heard both of them sigh

"Come on, you can tell me" I said in a reassuring tone, "Yeeun, Its seriously nothing serious, let us just drop this subject" Tina said

Oh Tina is defending him, Now I know it is something serious

Because when they were young, whenever they had fights, They would completely stop talking to each other

But when someone tries to confront the issue they would get all defensive and just try to shut down the questions

But if I ask them separately they won't have each other to support and it would be easier to get the answers any person needs

"Okay, well how was the fun with you two all alone" I asked, "Don't make it sound weird" Jisung said, "But it was actually fun and we ran into some of my old friends" Jisung said and I was know worried

"Did you know that Tina changed" Jisung said and I shook my head no, "Well she did" he said

"In what way?" I asked, "She's not the sweet, lovable, friendly, sassy, cute girl we used to know" he said, "I don't understand"

"she changed and in the worst way possible, she is ignorant, rude, disobedient and so much more" He said

"Did you see her" I asked, "No" he said, "Then why do you believe what they say" I asked

"Because we have been with some of them since we were in diapers, So I do trust them and their judgment" he said and I honestly couldn't say anything and if I did I will expose Rose

"But we both know Tina is not like that" I said, "They also know it, but people do change" He ended off saying

"Yeeun can we go back to your place?" Tina asked, "Why we are almost at the movies" I said

"I'm getting cramps" she said in pain, "Oh okay let's go then" I said doing a quick u-turn

The rest of the drive was silent

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Tina's POV

I got out of the car quickly and went to the bathroom quickly

I shut the door, locked it and sat in the bath tub

Why must everything hurt

My head hurts, my heart hurts

My negative emotions are going wild, I held my head and I felt tears slide down my cheeks

.....

"What did I do so wrong" I asked myself

"Why am I constantly being betrayed"

"Why must everything I love tend to hurt me or be hurt?"

"...useless..."

"Worthless"

"Whore"

"B*tch"

I begin to hug my knees and I just started to quietly sob, as I just suddenly remembering all those terrible words

"You know no one is going to love you right, you slut"

I felt my heart ache as more tears

"She changed in the worst way possible..."

"Rose?" I heard Yeeun call breaking me from my thoughts

"Yes" I answered, "Are you ... alright?" She asked

I just wanted to open that door and just cry and tell her that I am not, but I don't want her to know...

She already has done so much

"Yes, I'm alright"

"Tina... it's all going to be okay" she said, "I know..." I started getting out of the bathtub, walking to the door while wiping my tears

I unlocked and opened the door

"It always does" was my last words before I looked at Yeeun slightly smiling

Because it honestly hurt to say words like that, when I don't even know if it will

She hugged me tightly as if saying, I'm here for you and I hugged her back

I love her so much, but she still cannot know...

She has already done enough
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Yeah and that's all
I hope you guys like it
And it may not be a cheery story when it first starts but I'll make it up to you all
Maybe I'll add a little romance or not
You'll have to wait and see
Until next time, May Jesus be with you all