Y/n thoughts: every thing always goes to shit! It fucking hurts every...single...time. I can't even deal with this anymo-
Someone knocked on your car window
IT
WAS
ok I'm just gonna stop you already know who it is I won't play😘🙏🏼
ALEX!?
Y/n:*turns head to see his face* go away already!
Alex:*continues to knock on the car window*
Y/n:oh my go-
Alex:*faint voice but you still can hear* can you please let me explai-
Y/n:NO!
Alex:please princess...
Y/n thoughts: just hearing that sentence drove me crazy because of how much it broke me... he knows I'm not his prince-
Alex:I love you...
Y/n:ughh- just get in *unlocks car door for him*
Alex got in the passenger seat and looked at you
Alex:y/n... you look-
Y/n:Ik Alex... you did this to me.
Alex:I wasn't trying to-
Y/n: oh so you weren't trying to fuck Hailey while I was crying myself to sleep...BECAUSE OF YOU I WAS CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP! ALEX I WAS HURTING AND ALL YOU COULD DO WAS FUCK SOMEBODY ELSE! THATS DISGUSTING! What weren't you trying to do, huh?! MAKE SOMEONE THINK THAT YOU LOVE THEM BUT IN REALITY THEY ARE JUST A TOY? A GAME? A THING USED FOR PLEASURE OR JUST A THING YOU CAN FUCK AROUND WITH AND THAN PURPOSELY HURT THEM BY MESSING UP A COUPLE 100 TIMES? Who do you think I am Alex! Who!? Because I'm never gonna be "the first best" or a "princess" and ABSOLUTELY NOT gonna be the "person I love" because if you really loved me than you wouldn't fuck a whore that came off the streets that use to treat me like shi-
Alex: IVE ALWAYS PUT YOU AS FIRST BEST BABY! I FUCKED HER BECAUSE SHE SAID THAT IF I DIDNT THAN SHE WOULD PUT MY GANG IN TROUBLE AND-
y/n:DONT YELL AT ME ALEX! *trys to calm down* I have a reason to yell, you don't!
Alex:*calms down a bit*....she said she would put my gang in jail if I didn't pleasure her, not to mention she said she would kill or injure you horribly! She knew you came with me today... she did that on purpose. I never wanted to hurt you y/n! I was trying to protect you and my gang. You were never my last best or used for just pleasure! I love you more than this world can know and you know that, you hold a very special piece in my heart and I would never take you for granted! Sex is not what you made for... you were made to be loved and cherished and I want to be the one to do that y/n! Please... forgive me, for me princess.
Y/n: how do I forgive a person that hurts me so much...Alex I'm not that easy to get to.
Alex: because the person that hurts you the most happens to be the person that loves you the most... loves you enough to die for you! Has enough courage to stay with you no matter how much it hurted him when he got hurt as a kid... no matter what he did, no matter how much he tried... he couldn't take that one person out his mind, his system, his heart... you are stuck with him! And he can't do shit about it! You not might feel the type of way I feel but I know the way you feel isn't hatred towards that one person... and you know it.
Y/n:Alex...
Alex: do you love me?
Y/n: i can't answer that...
Alex:yes or no?
Y/n:...
Alex:yes or no y/n?
Y/n:YES! I love you more than words can describe but I can't show it because god knows how many more times I can get hurt by you! YOU BRAKE ME! It hurts like hell alex! I love you so so so much but can't live with knowing or feeling this way because you hurt me in a way I can't explain! It makes me want to just di-
Alex pulled you in and smashes his lips against yours*
*you kiss back*
Y/n thoughts: I didn't want to... but I can't run away from him:(
