An Unknown Kiss || Liskook ||

special beginning

Oh !god !!! I can't be in the same room as him.... His one gaze is enough for me to understand that I have done something terrible and he is not letting that go.... I stood from the sofa to head towards the balcony..

" Where are you going", jennie unnie asked

" Jennie unnie I didn't call mom today, I think I should call her.. She must be waiting for my call" I lied, I called mom in the evening only...
                              
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I was standing in balcony,  admiring the moon and city lights of Seoul,  which gave a beautiful view...... 

I don't know what's the matter with me..... I am so frustrated....... I could easily say sorry to jungkook about that incident and it was a mistake..... But I feel like this is wrong it was not a mistake,  I wanted that kiss to happen.... And after knowing that he was my mystery kisser.... The desire in me for the kiss keep increasing.... It sound so lusty..... I am so frustrated with myself....... What's going on with me...... Am I turning into some perverted woman ? That's the reason I wanted to keep distance with him.... I wanted these feelings to disappear....... And I was sure that they were gone until today when I saw him...... It all came back..... The emotions that are making me weak in front of him .... The feelings that he will never Reciprocate ... The feelings that I never felt for any man.....

I was standing in balcony admiring city lights.... And was drowned in my thoughts.... When I felt someone's presence behind my back.... I can sense his presence anywhere Nowadays..... Jungkook is here

" You are not good at lying,  you know " Jungkook said still standing behind me

" What I lied about?  " I said While shrughing my shoulders...

" You exactly know what I am talking about,  you didn't want to call aunty... You wanted to avoid me.... Which you are very good at I think " Jungkook said coming beside me

" You are lying or not,  doesn't matter.... I just wanted to apologize for that balcony incident at the party....  I really didn't mean to do that.... It was a mistake... I really am sorry..... And if you want to continue to avoid me it doesn't matter... It's your call to stay friends with me or not... I am so done with your attitude towards a kiss.... Which didn't even happen.... I was drunk that day or it would have never happened .....i don't care what you think about me " Jungkook angrily stated and left me standing there

His words were the only thing kept repeating in my mind.... And I don't know when  warm liquid was dripping from my eyes..... Those words hurt so much.... I wanted to keep distance from him... And when he finally suggested to do that , I feel like something in me broke.... I felt like I wanted to be near him not far from him... I didn't care.... After all these years he finally said...... I felt terrible......

I wiped my tears and composed myself.... This is best for us... I have my carrier in front of me... I can't just become weak because of some unknown feelings.....keeping distance will  make me feel better

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Dinner was good but  I lost my appetite so i ate very little because of certain someone who was sitting  opposite to me on dinner table.. The thing that hurt the most was he was behaving like i was not on the dinner table.. He always teased me but never ignored me... I could tell  my unnies and oppas could sense the tension between us too.... But they didn't said anything to us

After dinner everyone planned to watch a movie but i didnt have Enough strength to look normal in front of them and I had a ad shoot   tomorrow..so i suggested to go to my dorm... I was about to call our driver oppa... Jin oppa interrupted