SUNSHINE | PHAN

one hundred fifteen

dan ; i didn't know

dan ; i didn't know what i was doing i'm so sorry for all of this

dan ; i didn't mean for anyone to get hurt i was just messing around

dan ; i've always been a quiet person, never really made a presence for myself. you have though, i've seen it. people like you, phil, it's incredible to watch

dan ; i'm getting sidetracked. and i don't have much time.

dan ; it's a bit stupid to feel embarrassed, isn't it? i mean, i've already killed your friends

dan ; it was just a stupid app. i was messing around and i thought it might be interesting to download because it said this dumb stuff about making you popular and giving you friends, i don't know

dan ; you have to understand how desperate i've been, i'm so fucking lonely here.

dan ; i downloaded it. and right away it asked me all these questions about myself. pretty standard stuff at first, but then it started getting.. personal.

dan ; i didn't know what to think so i just answered them

dan ; then it asked me out of anyone in the world, who i would choose to be with

dan ; i hadn't put much thought into it before. but i thought of you. you always looked so misunderstood to me, so angry at something you didn't even understand. i always wanted to make you feel more heard than anyone else did. it was just a passing thought..

dan ; i typed in your name. it asked for a picture. i had one in my phone, you were just in the background of something i took

dan ; it didn't seem like there was much else to do, so i kind of forgot about it until i started getting notifications. weird, vague things like '82% complete!' or 'i am so happy to have you :)'. but it kept getting weirder. one of them just said
bleed and that's when i deleted the app.

dan ; phil it's not a person

dan ; and it's not just technology either

dan ; it's something worse and i don't know what it is but it's inside of me and it wants you so bad

dan ; phil i can't get it out

dan ; i can't get it out