Camila and Lauren where led on their bed cuddled up watching some Netflix show
"Lolo..." Camila said hesitantly, lauren looks at the younger and smaller girl
"What is it Camz?" She asked, she pauses the show to put all of her attention on her girlfriend
"I...now that we have a chance to come out, I don't known if I'm ready too.." she said, she looks up at Lauren who's face has confusion and a little hurt on it
"Why not?" She asked, Camz sighed and turned into Lauren's arms to cuddle into her chest
"I love you so much, I really do...I just I don't know if I'm ready to loose my career yet, it's been my dream my whole life and I'm finally living it, I'm not sure if I'm ready to give that up yet. I definitely don't pick money over love I really don't..I'm also scared of the world knowing and having so much hate on me" Camila said into Lauren's chest, Lauren sighed and nodded kissing her girlfriends head
"Okay..." is all Lauren said, she was hurt she will admit it she's been wanting to tell everyone that her and Camila was dating for years, they finally had a chance to but Camila wasn't ready, she understood that but it did hurt her a bit
"I'm sorry Lauren" Camila said, Lauren shook her head
"It's okay, I understand I won't push you to do anything, but our Careers won't be up everyone wants us to come out their all ways saying 'camrens real' '2019 is their year' they want this more than we do" Lauren said, Camila nodded and started to play with the end of Lauren's shirt
"But what about the other half who hate us...everyday their going to be putting us down about our relationship and I don't think I can handle that, not yet anyway" Camila said, Lauren nodded
"Yeh I get it, it's Christmas soon so if we do come out and you're ready can we do it on Christmas Day or on New Years?" Lauren asked, Camila giggles and nodded
"Of cause" Camila said and kisses her girlfriend
They then went back to watching Netflix
