To Be Different; Part One

To Be Different; Chapter 4

Chapter 4

July 10, 2010

There was the day when we started to go to school together. We'd always been in the same class during elementary and in middle school we both purposely chose the same classes to be together. She was like my safety net, something I'd always have to catch me when I fall.

 At this moment, she was the reason I woke up in the morning just to see her face light up when I walked to her door to walk us to the school. She was the sun for my rainy day; she'd try so hard to make me happy even if she failed epically. At least she tried, at least she cared.

I miss the old days though, the times when everything wasn't as difficult as before. When things were easy like adding two plus two equaled four, life was like an algebra problem always having a variable. And I suppose I was the variable in the problem.

There are moments that I miss so much it hurts. Moments I had with Cassie, where it was only she and I. Where we were both one, for so many years we'd been attached to the hip. Everywhere she went, I went. I loved her and maybe it wasn't the right kind of love that I should have given her.

If I wanted to make it feel right, I could have given Cassie everything she needed and vice versa. My parents have no clue what I am and every time Cassie would come over and leave they'd look at me the words "Are you going to go out with her?" written all over their face.

Maybe I should have given her a shot; maybe then, things would have been different. She was always there; I could have had her at any time. Could have made her mine but I didn't and I still wonder why. Why I didn't let myself take that chance, take the chance to love someone that really loved me even for what I am.

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Written by Christina aka BeautifulWriter224

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