Player ♕ Colby Brock

Chapter 24 ♕ One Way

Atmosphere's P.O.V:

Los Angeles including the cities surrounding it was always filled with light from the burning sphere in the sky, even during the coldest days of the year, but for some odd reason it wasn't today. The sky was filled with dark clouds that brought a different type of energy. And I felt gloomy because of it. But it looks like I'm the only one affected by this and I don't know why.

It's been almost a month since Colby and I have ended things and even though I'm still healing from it, it seems like Colby is back to his old self. He's been going out more and bringing girls home like he used to do, which breaks my heart more than ever. He looks like he has moved on and is much happier not being tied down anymore. And I should be happy for him, right? But I'm not and I don't think I will ever be.

But this isn't the only reason I feel even more low than usual. There's a different kind of sadness lingering in my body, but I can't pin point where it's coming from or what it's even about. And it's such an annoying thing when you can't figure out why you are so upset. I don't want to be upset for no reason, I want to have a reason so I can feel a little sane.

There was laughter coming from the living room which caught my attention as I made my way down the stairs. Everyone was home, so they decided to invite some friends over for a kickback. But I have been hiding upstairs this whole time, because I didn't want my energy to ruin the good vibe that was going on. But also being by myself makes me even more sad, so I honestly don't know what to do.

I peeked my head around the corner and noticed everyone was having a good time, which brought mix feelings for me. I was happy, yet sad at the same time. This made me feel like my presence maybe didn't matter in the group, because they seem to be having enough fun without me lately. Or this could be a trick my mind is trying to play with me, because we all know how a bitch our minds can be to ourselves.

My emerald eyes were fixated at Jake. He was talking with this brunette girl who I have only met a couple times in person. Her name was Tara. And the way Jake talks about her makes my heart melt. I always knew he was madly in love with her by the way he talked about her, but seeing the way he acts with her just proves it even more. And I'm glad he found his happiness with someone again after his last relationship. He always loved too hard, which is why he always suffered the most when his past relationships ended. But seeing them together, doesn't worry me at all. They both have love for each other even if they don't see it just yet.

My emerald eyes continued to wander around the room, looking for those familiar ocean eyes but I couldn't find them anywhere. A frown appeared on my face as I realized he kept to himself upstairs like I did. A part of me wanted to go to his room and see if he wanted some company, but I knew I would only hurt myself in the process of doing that. I'm suppose to detach myself from him completely, like he did with me but I honestly don't want too.

An angelic humming floated throughout the air, causing the hairs on the back of my neck to stand perfectly straight. My glossy eyes wander around and noticed no one else was hearing this sound but me.

The humming started to fade away towards the front door. I slowly followed the sound as tears threaten to leak from my eyes. I didn't want to believe that this was really happening. The last time I heard this unique humming was when she was still alive.

I made my way outside and let my watery eyes wander around our driveway until it landed on something I never expected to see. There stood a woman in a long white night gown tending to our died flowers in the corner of the yard. She was soaking from head to toe with a single  lavender slipper on. My heart ached as I stared at the ghostly figure of my deceased mother.

"Mommy." My voice cracked as I called for her.

Her peaceful humming stopped as she slowly turned to face my trembling self. A frown was written on her oval face as she stared intently at me. She looked utterly broken which sadden me. I thought maybe she would find her peace and happiness in the after life, but it looks like she didn't. She still looks miserable, but she covered it with her signature smile. She gave me a weak smile before looking up towards the dark sky. She slowly shut her eyes and silently stood there soaking up Earth's energy.