STATUS: Waiting, Hoping and Praying (COMPLETED)

Chapter 24

At nakita ko yung puting bagay sa harapan. At kahit di ko tignan yung loob nun, alam kong nasa loob nun ang walang buhay na katawan ni Lance. Sa totoo lang, ngayon ko lang yun nakita. Di kasi ako nakaattend kahit isang lamay. wala naman daw kaso kung hindi ako pumunta dahil hindi rin binuksan yun dahil nga daw hindi maganda yung lagay. 

tinignan ko lang yun.

Parang nagsasalita yun at sinasabing. “wag mo ng lokohin yung sarili mo. Wala na si Lance. Wala na. Hindi na sya babalik.”

Nagsimula na yung seremonya.

bago ako magsalita, marami pang nauna sakin. Yung mama niya, yung papa niya. Si Ate Ianne. Si Kirby, Si Seth, tapos marami pang iba na di ko kilala.

“di magsasalita si Christian?” bulong ko kay Seth.

“hindi ko alam kung nasan si Christian”

Tinawag na nila ako bilang pinakahuli. they even addressed me as Lance’s girlfriend, which hurts me more. But I did my best not to cry. I’m strong at yun yung Trixie na kilala ni Lance na dapat ipakita ko sa kanya ngayon.

“Good morning everyone. Sa totoo lang, wala talaga akong nakahandang sasabihin. Kakalabas ko lang ng ospital kahapon and up to now, hindi pa rin nag sisink-in sakin yung nangyari. But to tell you honestly, hindi talaga ako nagprepare. Kasi gusto ko, hindi ko pag-iisipan yung sasabihin ko. Lalabas na lang yung mga salita kasi yun yung nararamdaman ko.

Lance is my childhood friend. I met him when we were first year high school. Pero parang kilala na namin yung isa’t isa. He knows my mistakes, my secrets, my everything. Siya yung kasama ko sa bawat laban ko sa buhay. Pag may kaylangan ako, hindi siya nagdadalawang isip na ibigay yun.

we build our dreams together. gusto kong maging engineer at siya naman yung architect. But he laughed. Kasi daw hindi ko kakayanin. like what i’ve said, he knows everything about me. He knows my weakness. then suddenly, i want to be a broadcaster, i want to be teacher, a singer, a lawyer. lahat na ata ng profession gusto ko na but one thing is for sure, I want to marry a guy and his name is Lance Michael Gallano.

Lance is the sweetest guy i’ve ever met. Kung nakita niyo kung pano niya inamin yung feelings niya para sakin, you will know why I said so. he never failed to make me feel loved. Laging magigising ako sa mga text niya na wag akong papalate, na gumising na ko at madami pang iba. He even go to school early para lang sabay kaming magbreakfast/  Kahit na nsaktan ko siya ng todo, still nandun yung concern niya. He have his own ways. Sa totoo lang, bonus na lang yung physical appearance niya e. Coz everything about him, perfect.his smile can make your day complete. his moves canmake you realized that life must go on.

Lance is not my boyfriend but he is willing to wait until we finished college. pero hindi na kami nahintay ng panahon e. At masakit na sabihin na wala na lahat ng pangarap namin. Kasama niya yung mga yun na nilamon ng apoy na hanggang ngayon, di natin alam kung san galing. Na kaylangan kong mabuhay na wala siya sa tabi ko.

He made me so happy. At kahit sa huling sandali ng maikli niyang buhay, he made me feel like I’m the only girl in the world. alam ko hindi magiging madali yung mga susunod na araw.

Lance. he’s gone but never forgotten. Kahit na hindi nabigyan ng happy ending yung kwento namin, still, I feel blessed. coz once in my life, I’ve met Lance.

To Lance, best.. you will be forever loved. you will always be in my heart. and I’m going to miss you every single day in my life. Thankyou for making me happy. And thankyou for loving me.”

After I said the last words, tumayo na si Kirby at Seth. I know this will be the last. Last na buo kami though wala si LAnce para tumugtog. his presence counts.