MY STORY

TRIGGER WARNING

*you can skip this chapter if you want as it may be very triggering"

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Sugar is sweet just like you

But the Roses have withered,
The Violets are dead,
The sugar bowl is empty,
And my wrists are stained Red

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She hurts and she cries but you can't see the depression in her eyes because she just smiles and says "I'm fine"

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Why is it when I want to cry I can't.. ?

Why is it when no matter how much I scream, no one can hear me.. ?

Why is it when I see your smile, I break free from a curse I can't control.... ?

Why is it when you hug me, I don't hear the voices in my head.. ?!

But why do I feel selfish.... ?
I just want a little bit of love and a hug...

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Here on my arm lies a mark that I made.
When I was so low, I cut with a blade
To punish my body for being a mess,
Though here is my testament, I must confess...

That seeing these scars left on my arms, legs, and chest
Makes me realize I was in a place of no rest;
I feel guilty inside for leaving this token.
Now I will see and remember that I was so broken.

But seeing these scars helps me see
That I survived so much trauma and now I am free.
So I ask you now to stand with me and fight,
To show all these demons what they're doing is not right.

You won the battle of good versus bad.
You are still alive and are no longer sad.
Here on my arm lies a mark of survival.
I got through my hate and beat my self-rival.

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She slams her door closed.
The tears won't stop running.
She hits her head into the pillow.
"Why was I born?!" She screamed out.
Her mother runs quickly up the stairs, calling her name.
Before her mom could open the door she quickly locked it.
"Kate open the door" her mom yelled frantically.
She sat on the floor, leaned against her bed, soaked in tears.
Her mother started thumping on the door, screaming in worry.
She stood up and walked over to her window.
She gazed out at the sunset.
She opened the window, a soft warm air blew against her pail skin.
Her mother was still thumping heavily against the door.
She remembered all the harsh things they all said.
The tears start flowing again.
She stood on the window and looked down.
Her incredibly afraid mother burst into her bedroom.
"Kate!" She screamed.
She slowly turned around and spread her arms outwards.
"Suicidal people are just angels who want to go home."
She whispered softly.
Her mother grabbed her arm as she fell backwards.
Her mother wasn't that strong.
Her daughters arm slipped, And she watched as she saw her own special baby child fall.
Down,Down,Down,Down...

"Here in the forest dark and deep I offer you eternal sleep"

"And into the forest I go to loose my mind and find my soul"