épanouissement.

un.

this chapter includes:
homophobia, abuse.
feel free to skip everything in italics (where the subjects are mentioned.)
if the character is thinking during the italics part, i will underline it. (e.g. what the hell? i thought)
i do not mean to offend anyone in any way.
you have been warned.
if i see complaints, they'll be deleted. i told you in the prologue and just now about these subjects being in the story.
also, the people that are portraying jin's bullies are DEFINITELY not like that at all. i just used some idols because i'm not smart enough to think up of my own characters for this. i have no problem with the idols that are mentioned.

seokjin's point of view.

"there he is!"

"hey faggot, where do you think you're going?"

"come back here, we're not done with you yet."

see, this is the kind of shit i have to deal with every single day.

just for being gay.

just for being myself.

why is that so hard to accept?

"oi, i said where are you going?"

i stop in my tracks and turn around.

i'm met with the sight of the three people that have tormented me over the past four years.

ju-ne, jessi, and jennie.

they call themselves JGang.

my imaginary friend and i call them JerkGang.

jennie takes a step towards me in her designer heels.

wow, they're ugly.

"jin."

"j-jen."

"it's jenNIE to you, asshole."

"g-geez, okay..."

"look, imma be real here. no beatin' round the bush."

"o-okay?"

jessi speaks this time.

"s-so, w-what w-we w-want to t-tell y-you, i-is th-that s-someone l-left y-you th-this n-note in y-your l-locker."

"what?"

"it looks like a love letter. open it."

"oh...okay...b-but why were you near my locker? mine isn't near..."

"just open the fucking note."

i don't bother replying. i quickly tear open the light pink letter with "my love" written on the front.

i pull out the note (also light pink) and read it.

my shoulders droop.

ju-ne looks like he's trying to hold back laughter.

"well, loser? what does it say?"

i read out what's written.

"dearest jin,
we would like to start this letter off with a big fuck you.
nobody likes you.
no one understands why you're here.
you have no purpose in this world.
and it's not like you could be successful in any way.
no one wants to hire a disgusting gay person.
do yourself and everyone a favour, and kill yourself.
love,
the entire school ❤️"

the JerkGang start laughing hysterically.

through annoying high pitched giggles, jennie manages to say, "did you really think someone would have feelings for you? pathetic."

my eyes start to sting, but i make sure that no tears come out.

i can't give them the satisfaction.

ju-ne's face turns all serious.

"jin, look, man. i'm so..."

punch.

i'm knocked to the ground.

"i'm sorry that your mom gave birth to a dumb gay cunt. i can only imagine the pain and disgust she must feel, having to see your face every day."

"f-for the last time, junhoe, i don't have a mother. sh-she's dead."

"suicide, was it? from all the shame she brought upon her family? don't blame her."

"no. murdered."

"oh, i feel SO SORRY for you."

ju-ne lifts his fist again, and...

"LEAVE HIM ALONE!"

the JerkGang and i look over to see where the voice came from.

ju-ne smirks.

"hi, y/n."

unedited.