Yours Truly, Me (Troyler)

✉️Chapter 1✉️

Two Years Later

Tyler POV

I got the first letter two years ago.

My people might not know it for sure, or assume otherwise, but I read every single letter given to me by a fan. But this one, from the person that I'll refer to as him or even the 'letter boy', is definitely something new and unexpected.

Ever since that first letter, I've received several others, usually about one ever one or two weeks. Currently, I have exactly 74 letters.

Well, 75, as of today. I just haven't read the new one yet.

Usually, the letters just tell me about his day, or his last few days, and how he's been doing. Or something that's been bothering him. Or simply an opinion he just wanted to share, and get off of his chest, because he's not exactly open to anyone else.

The voice in the letters is so raw, I have absolutely no problem believing he could write insanely good songs, which I have learned he does write songs in his spare time, ( which he apparently has tons of ).

That's another thing about him. Every letter, I learn something new from him.

I know that he's gay. I know that he has blue eyes. I know that he's very self-conscious over his 'extremely skinny body'. I know that he has brown hair, and 'incredibly strong quiff game'. I know that he loves music. I know that he has a best friend named Kayla. I know that he's never been in love. I know that he's never dated. I know that he's never been kissed even though he's 18 now. I know that his birthday is June 5, 1995. I know that he's very pale. I know tons of other things about him, yet I don't even know his name.

I do know that, at least, when he referred to himself in that first letter, he's more well-known than I probably think.

Every time I get a letter, I try to learn something new about him, to make a face to go with the poetic voice. He says we've never met in person, but that he wants to. But even then, he probably wouldn't tell me who he was. But he swears we could be best friends, if given the chance, even if I didn't know him through the letters.

I believe him, on that. He seems extremely depressed, and doesn't really try to seek happiness, because, as he said, in one of his letters from about a year ago, 'the more you love someone, apparently, the worse it hurts when they let you down'.

I want to meet him, and just hug him and hold him in my arms and tell him it's okay, everything's okay, I'm here for him, I'm listening.

But of course, I can't do that. He won't even put a return address, bunch less who he is in any letter.

Any who, I just got back from Florida, from Playlist, and the timing of the letter is interesting to me. I mean, I always get excited when I get a letter after a meet up of some sort, but I've met so many new people, including my new favorite person Troye Sivan, and tons of new fans whom I totally love, so maybe...

I rip open the letter, and read the actually very pretty printed writing.

Now, before I begin, I want to explain myself. I know, I know, this could very well be a long time stalker or some weird shit like that, or some fan who wants me to notice them and lies about everything. But in his second ever letter, he said it himself.

'You have no way of contacting me or finding me. I have no reason to even believe you've read this. Why would I lie?'

Not to mention, there are some things you can't even lie about in paper. The honesty pouring out of these words...

But he's not just some depressing, emo kid, like I imagined him at first. He's cynical, definitely, but he's also funny, tends to have light-hearted moments, incredibly wise and old-souled, and even occasionally writes about small acts of love he commits to other people. Always platonic, but really, I think his ideas that should contribute to love are totally perfect and amazing.