The parallel game

~Kadhal Vizhiyil~

Mithra's POV 

I sat on the bench in the park that was attached to the hotel. I was wondering about where my love for Vijay would go!!!! Sometimes I feel like my love for him seems like creepy obsession..... But obsession and love are different, aren't they??? If not...... even then I don't mind... I don't know what world calls this feeling of wanting him.... I don't mind it's name but  my feelings for him make me feel nice. 

The warmth of his cute smile, his ambiance, his small gestures that show that he does care for fill me with love. I know he cares for me but I don't know if he loves me. It's ad if there is some happiness in his eyes but then without reason it fluctuates between grief, regret, guilt and suppression. Yes it feels as if he is trying to suppress his feelings.... 

I looked around and found not a soul to soothe me.... I held my head....

But why would he do it???? Is he trying to avoid them?????? Does he even have feelings, to begin with????? Are the feelings I see in his eyes even true???? Or are they reflection of my own feelings???? That's stupid!!!!! I don't suppress or self loathe when I am around him.... he does!!! Silently!!!! But why??? Again to the starting......

WHY IS LOVE SO DAMN CONFUSING???????!!!

I shouted out in inner turmoil.... I looked around and this time and thank my stars found Ani!!!!! He was waving at someone... following his wave I found Aditi. She smiled cutely and left with a final wave. 

This fellow was smiling like idiot while humming something unaware of a person watching him  He certainly looks very happy for someone who was going nuts over a single proposal.... honestly he has to exaggerate everything... be it love or the stress that it sometimes carries. 

"Hey Mithu!!!!" He sang finally noticing me...

"Indha talent laam Aditi kitta kaatu... ava mela irukura feeling la enna ipdi kevalama paadi torture pannadha..." I said with downward smirk. 

"Hehe sorry..." he actually apologized sitting beside me.

"Enna sir romba nalla mood la irukaanga??" I asked with a smirky smile. 

"Well... you see... beautiful love life!!!" He said adding a hum of Yaanji!!! 

I smiled at him then looked away thinking about why I was sitting here. He noticed the change in my emotions and looked at me in a questioning way. 

I attempted to brush it off but a surprising and rare 'don't-you-lie-to-me-miss' glare from him cut me off.

"Is it about Vijay???" He asked....

I looked at him surprised.... Wait!!! Why am I even surprised?? He knows me better than I do!!! I nodded and sighed....

He patted my shoulder comfortably...

"Hey Naan Aditi ku propose pannapo ava first in first enna sonna theriyuma???"

I shook my head. 

"She asked me why I took so long to express my feelings!!!" He said as if it was the most obvious thing in the whole universe.