Lonely Together (Justin Bieber Fanfiction)

Chapter 39

No matter what happens, no matter what he does, Justin will always have a special place in my heart. And that is one thing that could never change.

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"I made you dinner," Justin smiled once I walked in.

I forced a smile back and sat down, holding my head in my hands. "I'm, um, not very hungry."

"Jess, you haven't eaten all day. Come on," he said, massaging my neck from behind and planting a kiss on my cheek.

Usually I'd smile out of control and blush immensely, and Justin would laugh at how cute I thought he was being. But every time something like this happens, there's a voice in the back of my head telling me he's J. And it's something I can't shake off.

He then sat down next to me, touching my hand slightly. "Why are you so mad at me?" He whispered.

"I'm just so tired," I lied.

"Oh," he said quietly.

We sat in silence for what seemed like forever.

"So how was-"

"I know why." He whispered, looking at his hands.

I felt my body jolt at his words, my mouth running dry. "Y-You do?"

"Yeah," he lifted his head. "The Riley thing."

I let out a sigh of relief. However, I still needed to tell him what Sharon had told me. He deserved to know.

"Jess, I'm so, so sorry." He said softly. "You know how upset I am too."

I couldn't take it. He shouldn't be apologizing for something I wasn't mad about. "It's not that."

He eyes widened slightly, his ears perked. "Is there something else?"

I felt the need to cry. It's such a lose-lose situation. If I tell him, he'll get mad at me. If I don't, it'll forever stay in the back of my mind. "Sharon came over last night."

"What? When?"

"When you went to bed," my voice cracked majorly, but I was trying my hardest not to cry.

"What's gotten you so beat up, Jess?" He scooted closer and rubbed my back in circular motions.

"She knows."

"Knows what?"

I sighed heavily. "She knows you're J."

He froze in his place, and immediately stopped rubbing my back. He scooted away a bit, and slouched in his chair.

I could feel my eyes getting wet; he wasn't even denying anything. "I can't believe-"

"I am not J." He stood. "The fact you would even think something like that-"

"Wait, what?" I stood up too. I thought the reason he was mad was because he knew I was right, but I guess it was the other way around.

"Why would you say that?" He whispered, his eyes filled with hurt. "Why would you even think that?"

"Justin, it's just what Sharon-"

"Fuck Sharon." He spat. "Who's been there for you the entire time? Sharon isn't even her name," he hissed. "I'm the one who's been here."

"I just needed to know."

"Yeah," he nodded. "I'm, um, gonna stay at my house tonight. I need to think."

"No," I grabbed his bicep. What if he did something stupid? "You're not leaving me alone."

"Because what you did to me was so much better," he said sarcastically. "I just want to clear my mind."

I couldn't speak. He was really that upset? I didn't even know what to say.

He brushed past me and grabbed his jacket, slipping it on as he walked out the door. I however, remained exactly where I was, regretting ever opening my mouth in the first place.

Justin wasn't J, and I may have just ruined things for us. I always ruin things, but this time it was different. This time, it may not be able to be fixed.

And I, once again, was the only one to blame.

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note:

ok sorry if you considered this chapter boring/short/poorly written but im freAKING OUT BECAUSE THERES ONLY 2 CHAPTERS LEFT OF THIS BOOK. I CANT BELIEVE ITS REALLY OVER. :'(

ive been doing SO much thinking, and ive finally made a decision. there will NOT, i repeat, NOT be a sequel. just because of the way this book ends and such, it just wouldn't work. maybe i'll write another fanfic in the near future, idk. tbh, im just super super happy this book got as many readers/votes/comments as it did, and i wouldn't have it any other way.(:

one more thing, i think i don't give you guys enough credit and as much as it may not seem like it your tweets and comments and feedback literally make my day 20x better. i love you guys so much and you're positive and complementary words honestly leave me speechless. i'm so grateful. <3

well that's about as sappy as it gets, sorry for the long authors note and THANK YOU for reading. can't wait to hear your reactions to the ending omg omg omg. :O

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