I thought I found love 😩

Is this real ?

Summer of 2017 I got my first job ever! I was so excited. They had a lot of grown mean trying to talk to me and I always shoot them down because some of them had wives and children I always said I don't like people older than me and I don't like people with kids because one day I want to start my own family I don't need know drama with your baby momma, but anyways they had this one dark skin boy that stayed coming in the store and his name was josh. So one day josh came in the store all cheesed up and shit I'm like the fuck laughing in my head because he would always smile in my face and get what he need and walk out. But this one day he came in the store my line was long as fuck so he didn't get to talk to me like I wanted him to. So he send his brother in the store to give me his number I was like for real he was like yea man my brother want you. So he gave me his number on a piece of paper and it was so small I'm like okay. Then I almost lost the boy number so I'm like let me hurry up and text him because I'm already about to lose the number. I got to know him he took me out on a date made sure I had money in my pocket and everything I was like okay kiya you got it sis. He took
Me to work brought me home made sure I was good. But this one time he brought me to his house and he was like kiya come on and yes we talked about sex so I'm like this nigga doing all this for me why not we been knowing each other a good minute and I was going on 2 years without sex so I'm like okay let's do it. He climbed on top of me and started kissing me and when he told me get on top I noticed he didn't turn me on. He kept trying to force it and it just didn't work. I'm like maybe he just ain't turn me on like I thought he would or I'm just nervous cause I didn't have sex in a while. Then josh started calling me a little girl his true colors started to show but I let it slide.