Soongyu - For All To See

:: What If It Were Us? ::

   Had Hansol ever told Seungkwan just how beautiful his smile was? He didn't think so. But right now all he wanted to do was wake Seungkwan up and see that smile he adored. A smile he wanted to keep for himself... He really didn't want Seungkwan getting too far away from him, but at the same time was so proud of him.

   "God what are you thinking, Hansol?! He's your friend..." Hansol hadn't realised he'd spoken out loud until Seungkwan stirred in his arms slightly, causing Hansol to adjust his position just enough that Seungkwan was at no risk of falling.

   Once again Hansol found himself focusing his attention on Seungkwan's lips; lips which had since pressed into a thin line, looking almost tense since Seungkwan's stirring. The urge to relieve Seungkwan's tension was apparently too strong as before Hansol could focus on his actions enough to stop himself, he tilted his head and leaned in close enough to press his lips against Seungkwan's, his neck aching slightly at the awkward position - what with Seungkwan still being held on his back.

   His lips were so soft... Sure there was a faint taste of alcohol still, but there was also a taste of strawberries. Hansol parted his lips slightly and once more brushed them over the surface of Seungkwan's, earning a faint mewl from the passed out Seungkwan which sent a spark coursing through Hansol's body.

   Almost as quickly as he had leaned in, Hansol was quickly leaning away, eyes wide with shock over what he'd just done. Clearing his throat he looked away from Seungkwan and hurried inside, checking over his shoulder just once to make sure no one was around. Thankfully no one was and hastily he closed the front door and began to carry Seungkwan in the direction of their bedrooms.

   Why did I kiss him? Why? Oh God, he tasted so good. No, stop it. I can't think like that. He's always been like a brother, we're group mates. What was I thinking? If he knew I'd kissed him whilst he was drunk, he'll hate me. Did I just take advantage of him? Nevermind that, we're supposed to work and live together. I can't just do that - it can't happen. Nothing more can happen between members... I can't love him like that.

   Hansol's head swarmed with countless thoughts, an unending stream of self-criticism. But when had love entered the picture? Hansol groaned in his own confusion. He knew he felt differently towards Seungkwan in comparison to other people, but tonight was the first night of its kind. The first night he'd truly questioned just how he felt and the first night he'd ever dreamed of kissing Seungkwan.

   But Hansol was right. Nothing could happen between them. Besides, Seungkwan thought of him like a pet dog, right? Like a little brother? Hansol didn't stand a chance.

   Dejectedly Hansol walked down the corridor, surprised to see his bedroom door wide open. Perhaps Soonyoung was still awake? He'd almost forgotten that Mingyu and Soonyoung were still home.

   He walked to the door and turned his body to look inside prepared to greet Soonyoung or at least check if he was ok, just in case he'd passed out in his bed with the door still open, but instead what he saw left him frozen; eyes wide as if they were prepared to fall out of their sockets.

   "What the fuck?!" Was all Hansol could manage to say.

   Mingyu and Soonyoung were kissing?! Embracing one another as well as being stark naked whilst their clothes littering the floor.

   Hansol found himself unable to focus properly as his mind pieced together the scene in front of him, but he could make out the sound of Mingyu pleading with Hansol, saying that they could explain what was going on.
   The room smelled like sex... Hansol found his eyes continuing to dart around, back and forth, unsure as to where he could focus his gaze.