Sister's girlfriend (Jenlisa x Lisoo)

Ch. 11

Jisoo went to her doctor again with her parents. Every sunday she always does that. She's always fainting lately, chest pain and tightness in her chest. In short, she have heart cancer. Stage 4.

Her parents want her to go abroad for medication. But Jisoo doesn't want to leave her girlfriend. She's more worried about Lisa than her condition. Lisa have no idea about it. Though Lisa is really worried she's fainting in front of her and catching her breath. Lisa offered to go to the doctor but Jisoo refused. She said it's normal and she just want to rest.

"Baby you need to heal yourself. You need a medication there sweetie. We can't lose you" Her mom cried

"Mom have you heard the doctor? It's stage 4 it means there's nothing we can do about it! Nothing. So please let me stay and be with Lisa. If I die atleast I'm with her, I don't want to go anywhere. I don't want to leave her mom. I want my last remaining days to be with her. I suffered a lot. Do you think I want this? Do you think I don't want cure? Yes of course I do. But mom dad, my body. My body is giving up" She cries "It's like I'm fighting against the demon mom. It hurts, my body hurts. I'm tired mom. I'm tired of taking medicine. I'm tired of my therapies. I'm just tired mom" Mrs. Kim hug her daughter.

"Tell me baby, Lisa is the reason why you are still fighting right?" She nods "Look we can tell her and come with us to abroad. I'm sure she won't hesitate to..." Jisoo pulled away

"No! You can't tell her! I don't want her to worry. And she have her own life mom. Don't tell her please I'm begging you. This is my only wish before I die, ple..."

"No no no sweetie don't say that. You're not going to die okay?" She asks between her sobs

"Mom, I'm tired" She look pale without make up. She always wear make up to cover it.

She's fighting for it in her entire life. When she met Lisa she wants to live. She wants to get cure that's why she takes theraphy every sunday. But it get worse. She thought she can survive.

"I only have 3 weeks mom"

(...)

"Princess are you okay? Your eyes are swollen. Did you cry?" Lisa asked worriedly.

"No baby. I'm just tired" She small smiled as she kissed her girlfriend.

They lay in Lisa's bed, Jisoo rested her head on lisa's chest and wrapped her arms around her.

"Love, this is my favorite place" Jisoo said holding her tears. Lisa chuckled

"My room?" She asks

"Silly! No but yeah part of it. But here, resting in you chest, laying on your bed all day long. Not thinking about anything except us. It's just perfect" She wanted to cry but she can't. She doesn't want to lisa to get worry or flood her with questions. It breaks her heart when

"Then we'll do this for the rest of our lives" Jisoo holding her tears. "Because this is my favorite too. Hugging you, telling each other's stories. Telling how much we love each other. And now I want to tell you this, Kim Jisoo. I want to live with you for the rest of our lives" Jisoo wiped her own tears. She's thankful Lisa is not looking at her

"Me too Lis. Me too" That's all she can say "Can I ask you something?"

"Yes baby of course"

"What if I leave you? What if I die?" She can't tell Lisa but she wants to give her a idea.

"What are you saying?" She laughs nervously "Of course that won't going to happen"

"No. I'm just asking. Please answer it" Lisa took a deep breath

"I don't know why you suddenly asked me this kind of question. If you leave me? I will look for you, I will wait for you till you came back. I will patiently wait. Because loving you is the best thing I ever did in my entire life of existance. Because I don't know what I will do without you, I can't live without my other half. You're my other half Chu. If you die, but of course its not going to happen...but I still want to answer it to clear your mind" She kissed her head before answering and look at the ceiling

"If that will happen I don't know baby. I don't know if I still want to breathe. If I still want to wake up in the morning knowing that the person why I'm still breathing is not existing anymore. I will choose to die than dying here crying myself alone. Sure you might die but not in my heart. But still Jisoo I can't see us like that. You lying down in a casket, while me staring at your dead body, I just can't Jisoo. As I've said you're my other half Jisoo" As Jisoo heard that she cries "Hey princess, why are you crying?" She asked worriedly

"I just don't want that to happen" She burried her face on Lisa's neck

"Shhhh. Don't cry. Never in a million that gonna happen"

'But it's happening Lis. 2 weeks from now I will leave you. I will leave the important person in my life. Do you know how much it hurts when you told me that you don't want to live because If I'm going to leave you? It hurts to leave you like this lis, I didn't wish this to happened. I want to be with you until your last breathe. But I can't. I can't make it. Lis...I hope I could turn back time. But I can't. I will miss you lis, I will miss how you hold me like this, how you kiss me, how you comfort me, i will miss everything about you. Lis...I'm sorry I'm so sorry...Please forgive me. But I promise you, in our next life I will never leave you again. Lis, I hate to say this but I'll wait for you up there' Jisoo said to herself as she cry harder. Lisa's confused in her sudden behaviour but she just comfort her girlfriend instead of questioning her.