My Amazing Boyfriend [Park Jimin FF]

Chapter Thirty-Two

We slowly made eye contact, "Can you promise just one more thing for me?" he called out.

I hummed in response.

"Only love me... ever." he closed his eyes, "I get that you have to resolve things with Jungkook... I get that that's already something you've broken, but I don't care. Just from now on, only look at me." he seemed even more desperate. 

Again tears began to fall. So many thoughts rushed into my head. How was I gonna explain everything to Jungkook? He didn't even know anything about Jimin, about my situation. This was going to be extremely hard... what have I gotten myself into?

✎...

Jimin had kept me company for a little while after our conversation. I was truly happy to be spending time with him. We laid side by side staring up at the ceiling, just talking with each other. My mind however couldn't stop drifting back to Jungkook. He probably hates me... I deserve the hatred. It only seems as if I've solely led him on, but that was never my intent.

"Jimin, what if I can't keep that promise? What if I can't get Jungkook out of my head?" I stayed staring off at the ceiling.

He stayed silent for a little while. I'm probably making him so miserable, "Try. I don't want to lose you Hana. I never ever thought I could possible end up being replaced." he sighed turning to face me on the bed, his face rested on his arm. 

I followed turning towards him, "Is that why you claimed to take me for granted?" I sighed, slowly lessening the distance between us.

"Mhmmm." he hummed, "I thought there would be no way in hell of losing you. If I'm being honest, I assumed you'd never have the guts to leave me, or to even find someone else for that matter. I thought I had such a grip on you that would make you never want to leave, but In turn, I only ended up pushing you away." his eyes glistened as he stared at me, his eyes never leaving mine, "That's something I regret. I regret not cherishing you the proper way, of seeing you of some kind of belonging. It wasn't right of me." he took his hand and brushed a strand of my hair behind my ears, "But don't think I didn't love you. I'm not saying I only ever viewed you as on object. That's far from the truth. I viewed you as my soulmate, one that only belonged to me." he smiled softly.

For the moment Jungkook left my mind, "I see. If I come back, you promise to cherish me correctly?" I raised a brow.

"I'm cherishing you correctly right now. I did something I should've done months ago, even a year ago. I'm committing myself to only you. No more thoughts of Chae. You are the reason I live and breathe now. Without you, who knows where I would've been. I could've been dead for all I know." he pouted his lips giving me a child like expression, "I was dumb... dumb to let precious moments with you slip because I was scared to commit, because I was scared to love." his eyes softened, "I wasted lots of valuable time Hana, and I only realized just how much I wasted when you left." I seemingly nodded my head agreeing with his statement.

"We fought so often, all because I didn't put you first. Something a man needs to do when he's in a relationship. From this day fourth, I promise you with all my being, that I'll only see you. That I'll only love and cherish you. That I will be the man I should've always been because you mean the world to me and I can't imagine myself without you. Though it seems cliché, you made me who I am today... without you, there is no me Hana." he smiled and kissed my cheek delicately.

I could feel my eyes begin to sting. He's never been so sentimental with me before. This was the right thing to do. I don't regret leaving him that day because now he finally understands. I finally come first, like how I've always put him.

I truly hope that he's really come to this realization and he's not tricking himself. It's happened before and it could happen again. He tricked his mind into thinking he had moved on, when in reality his heart hadn't. I hope I'm not letting him back in too easily. It's only been 3 months after all. I couldn't help but to feel a bit uneasy. I even began to hyperventilate a bit. I was anxious... scared of the future. Scared that maybe he really isn't healed after all.

"Baby, what's wrong?" as he spoke, my thoughts stopped being produced.

"I- Jimin... what if you're really not healed yet? What if you only think you are and you end up leaving me?" I couldn't help but to let the tears fall. I'm scared. Scared to think of what could happen.

"Aissh, seriously?" he hissed out, "Hana- stop worrying about the future and live for now." he raised himself, "I can say I'm sure that I need you in my life. Even if I'm not fully healed like I may believe, I know that I will always try for you. I honestly couldn't find myself ever leaving your side. You're like my drug." he pressed a kiss onto my forehead.

"You promise?" my voiced hitched.

"I promise you Hana Kim that I will forever find myself trying my best for you. You are my motivation." he smiled.

My heart felt tingly. It's been a while since Jimin's made me feel like this... "Kiss me." I demanded.

With that my wish was his command. He slowly brought his lips to touch mine. I've missed the sensation Jimin's lips carried. I've missed how they've felt mingled with mine. With this kiss the world felt like it stopped spinning.

More tears continued to fall and as he felt his face dampen, he pulled away, "I love you." he smiled softly as he slowly wiped my tears away.