You know why people cut? Because it's a distraction. For one moment you don't feel all the pain, the loss, the hurt. All you feel is the razor going in to your skin, the blood dripping down your arm, leg, stomach. You don't think bout how alone you are or how fat and ugly you are. You don't think bout the way people talk behind your back. You don't think bout your family fighting or you friends hate you. All you think bout is the blood. And the addicting part? Well that's when all the hurt and pain come back. When the cut is not fresh and you can feel all the build up of sadness and loneliness inside you. So you have to do it again, but a little deeper so the numbness will last longer. The pain inside delayed longer. And as the pain gets worse and worse you have to make the pain outside worse and worse. It's all about control. You have it. You can't control the pain on the inside so you get to control it on the outside. That's why.
