Irresistibly Drawn TO You. Book 1( Editing&Revising)

prologue

Its usually the ones willing to do any and everything for another that end up getting hurt

-anonymous

"Naomi I'm done with you. I'm sick of your ass straight up. You are just too dark for me. you would look so much better if you just lightened up a bit. Figuratively and physically," jade stands there and smirks after she finishes tearing me to shreds with her harsh words. I'm in complete shock because her words came out of nowhere. While we're on vacation in Cuba, at that. I glance around at the people surrounding us and try to hide my embarrassment.

"Jade w-" she cuts me off before I could get a word in.

"I mean you're cute and all, but I can't have someone like you on my arm. It'll ruin my image." Ruin her image?? What is she even talking about. I know jade has always been about having everyone see herself and her partner in the best light. She's an upcoming female rapper so I understand but she's being too much right now. I have never done anything that could jeopardize her image.

"I told you to lighten your skin to help with my image but you couldn't even do that. All around me, everyone has a light skin baddy on their arms.  I can't even go to Chris brown after parties because of you. I'm not asking for that much and it doesn't harm you." Jade says to me like it's the most simple thing in the world. I squeeze my fist into tight balls and dig my nails into my palms to keep the storm at bay building up within me. Everyone around the swimming pool area  is still looking at us like a spectacle.

"Jade I understand you're mad about not winning the best new artist award and things have been stressful for you,but please don't take this out on me." I beg her and hope that this one time she won't embarrass me in front of all these people. It's not the first time she's said some disparaging things to me in public. Usually not to this existent though.

I don't know if I can continue to take everything she throws out at me. With her I thought I finally got it right this time. I thought I found someone who could love every part of me. As the years progressed with her I started to think other wise,but then I told myself it's just my insecurities speaking up. Don't let them dictate you.

"There's also the matter of sign language. It's just too difficult for me to learn. It's hard to communicate with you." She lifts her chin up and stares down at me in that arrogant way that I once saw as enduring but now come to hate as she has used it against me.

"I'm not fully deaf jade only partially. I don't wear it often because I know you don't like seeing me in public with it on if it can't be hidden." I say to her  and rub my hand across my chest hoping it'll help ease the ache. The tears are trying to come and I take an audible gulp and held the tears back.

"Yeah but it's enough that I still need to learn just to communicate with you and I don't want to."I  listened as Jade continued and I started to feel light-headed and almost like I was having an out-of-body experience. "I'm tired of you complaining about not being able to understand me," she said extremely slowly.  I have asked her to speak slowly when I didn't have my hearing aid on but She's been talking to me like a child and like I'm stupid or something. I'm partially  deaf. Not stupid.

I take a glance once more around at the people surrounding us. There was a hushed silence over the crowed but I could see and hear some whispers going about. As the crowed looked at me I saw that some  pitied me while others smirked.  Some random woman walks over to jade and leans on here. Jade bends down to give the girl a sloppy kiss. At this scene I feel my blood boil.

She has been cheating on me throughout our whole relationship, and I didn't say anything about it because I know she would have tried to turn it around on me and make it seem like I was doing something. Yet here she is slobbering over some random chick to my face!!

I also never said much and ignored it because I loved her and I wanted to work through things and figure out what I could do to make her not cheat anymore. Maybe I wasn't being attentive enough or something.

"I've been nothing but a loving girlfriend to you jade. How dare you treat me this way." I  shouted out to her with a crack in my voice with each word I spoke. I was trying so hard to not let her see me break or see how much her words and actions were affecting me.

"You know that's a lie, Naomi. You are bisexual and everyone knows how much you guys love to have sex and shit." She laughs like what she said was the funniest thing in the world. The woman on her arm Joins in.

"You have most likely been cheating on me way before I even fucking cheated on you" she says pulling the woman in close to kiss the side of her cheek. The audacity of them both to be so lovey Dovey in front of me! This is exactly  what I was talking about. She always try's to turn  it around on me to make it seem like I did something.

"Admit it you're nothing but a greedy little whore. Wouldn't be surprised if you caught something" maybe she's the one that caught something. Jade has stepped out on me more than once and I just took it. I let it happen to me and didn't say anything.

All I could do was stand there in complete horror and anger because I really can't believe she just said what she said. I haven't done anything suspicious to warrant this behavior towards me.

"Well considering you're the only one that's been stepping out I'm sure you caught something so I'm glad you are breaking up with me," I say to her with false bravado to try and not show how deeply everything she's saying is tearing me up inside.

I look at the woman on her and I say. "She's the slut so please trust and believe she'll be cheating on you too" I say and cross my arms and then stare the woman down.

"Well I'm a lesbian so she doesn't have anything to worry about from me, so I'm very sure I won't be cheated on"

I throw my arms up in exasperation and I laugh sarcastically at the bitch because she truly believes she's exempt. as if your sexuality has to do with you being or not being cheated on.

"How you gain them is how you lose them, sweety," I say to her, and then I turn on my heels and March out of the pool  deck area with my head held high.. I keep my composure until I make it to my hotel room door.

I slide down the wall and just let everything I've been holding in for the past two years come out. I gave my all to this bitch.

I give my all in every relationship I'm in, but I'm always the one done wrong every single time. I'm so tired of everyone and everything. For too long I've been keeping everything locked up inside. I  was hurt the other times I was cheated on and dumped, but I just brushed it off and kept on going because they say why be stuck over just one fish when there are so many more in the sea?

this time though I don't know if i can get over this. there's only so much a person can take. With each relationship I'm in, I try my hardest to please them, and nothing seems to ever work. if they feel like I'm not being attentive enough sex-wise or in general I try to do more to make them feel good.   I guess I'll never really be good enough for anyone no matter how hard I try.

AUTHORS NOTE
This is an updater version of the previous story with rewrites and added scenes and stuff. I'll only be uploading just three or maybe five chapters. You will have to read the results t of updated version when I publish it.