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I think I might loose one of my online friends.

She tried to commit suicide again and luckily her irl friend knew. He texted me in a panic. I told him to be calm and not to be irrational about the situation. I tried to keep calm and be strong for her.

When he told me she wouldn't let him in I told him to call someone. The police or someone who could help. He ended up calling the neighbors. They tried to break the door down to help save her. She wouldn't talk to him and from what I hear she was crying. I told him to talk to her and to just let her listen.

Soon he texted me saying he couldn't hear anything. So I told him to find a window and to hurry. The last text he sent was "I'm calling an ambulance."

I was kind of scared and just waited for a reply. It wasn't until a few minutes ago I got a reply. I don't know how to feel about it but I hope she's okay. It read, "She's not breathing right."

I need to be strong. But right now I just want to cry. It hurts to know we might not be able to meet in person one day. Or to talk about BTS together. Or to hear her and my other friend about how "cute" I am. Hear them talk about school and just lifting each other up. I haven't even told my other friend and I can't bring myself to because she's so stressed with school I can't stress her out more. But I have to tell her. I know I do.

But being her Unnie(Its basically Hyung but its for girls) I have to make sure she's okay and healthy mentally and physically.

I hope she gets better soon. Me and my 2 other friends are waiting for you to come home to us. Even if she lives across the world from me and my friend. At least she has the boy who texted me to show her our love physically.

{Her name here} We love you please wake up soon. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 fighting ✊💜

-I'm crying so hard damn it