it's been a few weeks; and no before you ask, i didn't go see the boys before they left. i had a few missed calls from ethan and a text from gray. all it said was 'bye.' so i just left it on read. schools out, i graduated college and i'm heading to cali with courtney. this is going to be interesting because she wants to go to LA. what if i see them or they see me. we'll just have to see what happens.
"you ready?" court asked and of course my nervous ass stayed frozen. "hey asswipe!" she yelled while shaking me.
"yes?" i said coming from my thoughts. "yeah. yeah, i'm ready." i stood up and walked to the door, locking it on the way out before shutting it. we already sent our luggage. i went to go say bye to james but he wasn't home. he hasn't been home for awhile. welp, i'll see if he's okay when we get back.
—— skip flight ——
we get to the apartment and unpack for the few months we're here. maybe longer if we like it. we'll see.
"hey. wanna go explore?" i ask court.
"uhhh duh. if we bump into those boys i'm kicking some ass today!"
"no ass licking today." i said laughing.
"you're no fun. what if they do something?"
"you're not hurting them." i said with a smile. "why do you want to fight them anyways?"
"i don't know. i like fighting. i should become a boxer." she said with determination written all over her face. she should honestly. she's got the muscles for it and she can kick some ass. she hasn't lost a fight i've seen her in.
"you should." i said.
we walked out and onto the streets since everything was surrounding us. we went to go get coffee, me getting chai tea with 4 shots of espresso. yes i like my coffee strong as hell, and court getting a caramel frappe. we walked around and headed towards a museum, and art museum to be precise.
walking in, it was beautiful. i couldn't stop looking around. i paid for a ticket and court paid for her own. she wouldn't let me pay. we walked around and took a few pictures. walking around we saw a piece that was blocked my three guys and a girl. we decided to walk around and look at the others and then come back.
"anja omg hey girl!"
"james?!" court and i said at the same time.
i ran to him and jumped onto him knocking us both over. when we hit the ground courtney joined in.
"i missed you james. where have you been? i have missed you sooooo much!" i muffled into his chest.
"i loved to LA for youtube. i'm sorry i didn't tell you babe!" all three of us got up. "you already know gray and e. but this is emma!" he said.
"hi emma. i'm anja! and this is courtney." i said.
"hiiiii. i'm emma as you know. wanna hang with us?"
"no i think we should go." i said as i looked at court whom, may i add, was red in the face and i'm pretty sure had smoke coming out of her ears just being near the twins. well fuck. "i'll see ya!" i yelled while dragging court away. "calm down sis. it's okay."
"it's not! they just stood there and acted like they did nothing! how does james not know what happened? anja you can't just let this slide, okay? they can't just hurt you the way they did. they shouldn't hurt you period." she started crying from how mad she was so i pulled her into a hug until she calmed down. she was right, i shouldn't have let it slide. but ethan didn't do anything. it was all grayson.
"ethan did nothing that's why him and i are okay. it's all gray and him and i aren't even talking." she pulled away and i wiped her tears. "i love you court."
"i love you too."
"let's finish this and then go eat. i'm starving!" i said. she laughed a little a nodded, wiping the last tear the fell away.
*ding*
ethan: hey. i didn't know you were in LA. how come?
me: i didn't think to tell. we haven't talked in a few weeks to a month.
ethan: that doesn't mean i don't care. you're still a friend of mine.
me: and you're still a friend of mine. i still care too but like i said. we were drifting a part. and how fair would it be if i told you and not gray? or hung out with you and not gray?
ethan: just talk to him. we can all be friends.
me: no. he hurt me. you is the one that didn't say anything. he's the one that pushed me away when i all i want to do was fix things. i'm. it apologizing and if he wants to fix things, he needs to come to me.
ethan: okay missy :)
me: bye e
ethan: bye
"who were you texting?"
"ethan. he was wondering why i didn't tell him i was in LA."
"you two have been distant the past few weeks."
"that's what i told him."
"good." she said.
we continued admiring the art, occasionally passing the the group. grayson, looking at me everytime. i wonder if ethan told him what i had said.
"ready to go?" i asked court.
"yes i'm soooo hungry!" she said.
"i said that about an hour ago. let's go!"
"oh shush." she said walking towards the exit.
we passed by the group again and grayson grazed his fingers onto mine as i passed my. me? i acted unaware of the incident and unfazed. i couldn't let him back in. i can't let him back in.
*ding*
grayson: meet up tomorrow? i really want to talk to you.
me: like i told ethan. if you want to fix things, you need to come to me. i'm not going to meet half way.
grayson: please? i don't know where you're staying at and i know you don't want me to know. i know you've met up with e somewhere back in NJ. why can't you do that for me?
me: he isn't the reason i cried myself to sleep every night.
me: i'm sorry that was insensitive.
grayson: no it's okay. i deserve that. but please. i really need to talk to you.
me: okay. a time and place?
grayson: yeah. tomorrow at 9 am. i'll send you the address tomorrow.
me: so early but okay. i'll see ya.
