Pros and Cons

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"Tom?"
"Hey"
"Hi"
"We'll let you two talk" dad said as Margot left nudging Tom into the trailer and closing the door. My shoulders were really tensed up
"You look great" he said staring at the ground
"You too" I sighed. I knew we would never get to the topic unless I brought it up and I really didn't wanna address this at all. It's just the harsh reality that I ruined everything
"So how are things" his hands were in the pocket of his jeans
"Tom I'm still in love with you" I finally looked at him, but he was still looking at the ground.
"I know" he sighed but then finally looked at me "I'm still in love with you too" he said it as if it was almost a bad thing. As if I reminded him about something he's been trying to forget about
"I'm sorry" I felt tears welling in my eyes "I didn't mean to hurt you"
"I never wanted to be hurt" he looked back at his feet "wow I sound like an absolute baby right now" he tried brushing off the tears almost falling from his eyes with a terribly fake laugh. "It's just I wanted to love you so badly Aurora and everytime I did YOU did something to make it worse. It's like running a race and NEVER winning. It hurts, hurts like hell to know you will always be 2nd best"
"You were never second best" I corrected him
"But Aurora me Harrison last week sat down at my table, yes and we sat and we made a pros and cons list" he completely ignored what I had said "a pros and cons list you're probably asking and yes. A pros and cons list. Wanna know what is was about" without even waiting for a response he continued "it was about the pros and cons of dating you. There were many pros but still many cons, I will tell you there were more cons than pros....no need to lie right now" he was talking as if he was giving some speech, a complete mood change
"Way to lighten the blow holland" he stopped his pacing and jokingly glared at me. For a second I felt happy, it was like none of this ever happened.
"But Aurora I was like, wow. A lot of cons and Harrison was like yeah a lot. And so that was where I was done. My phone was shattered. There were a lot pros but still not as many pros as cons and I was like well"
"I get it" i rolled my eyes. Than the door busted open
"AURORA!!" Was screamed and I turned to see Sebastian Stan. You could cut the tension in the room but Seb obviously didn't notice nor cared. He ran and gave me a huge hug
"Hey" I said as I slyly wiped the tears in my eyes so he wouldn't see I had been crying
"Hah your dad told me not to come in but I was like oh who cares! And here I am" he laughed and then broke from the hug
"Oh"
"Tommy" he laughed and turned to Tom doing one of those 'bro hugs' and then turned back to me
"How are you??" He asked me, how did he not feel this awkwardness. I literally wanted to run and scream. This hurt me
"Aye seb we were in the middle of talking could we-" Tom tried interjecting
"Sorry man but I haven't seen Rory in a LONG time so you can finish talking to your girlfriend in a bit" I wish he didn't refer to me as that. I was genuinely FAR from being Toms 'girl friend' and that relatively hurt to hear those words. Since at one point we were so close to that.
Seb all of a sudden brought me back into a hug and we sat there for like 5 minutes. The longest 5 minutes of my life.
"Alright I'll let you two love birds be" he laughed and waved to us both and then quickly left. It was weird. It was like he was sent in to be some intermission.
"As i was saying" Tom started again.
      "Yes continue" I annoyingly said as I leaned up against the wall feeling pretty bad about myself
       "So the cons obviously out weighed the pros. Yknow for kissing Harry, and hurting me, and choosing Jake, and you snore, and you tend to put me in 2nd place, and you sleep on the right side of your bed and I sleep on the right side of my bed, than you tend to get colds a lot I don't know how but you do"
       "Ok Tom I get it I'm flawed" I rolled my eyes
       "You have this weird thing you do, where you do a little skip when you're happy and start- oh wait no that was a pro. Uh you take a lot of photos of me and they're ALWAYS bad, you almost died, you tend to rebel a lot, you're very emotional but I think that one was half pro half con, you don't like beer...that one was weird, but I mean it could be a pro because that leaves more for me?"
        "What is the point to this, to make me feel bad about myself....even more than I already to" I began to walk towards the door but he grabbed my hand
       "Ro thats Not the point..." and I stopped leaving and crossed my arms
       "Than What is?"
      "See scientifically, the cons out weigh the pros and I shouldn't date you....but I was never very good at science"

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