And If... {completed and edited 2024}

And If... He stayed away ?

Now, it was the end of the afternoon and RJ was back from aunt Suz' house where he played all day with Dorian. I thought that he was going to come back here all tired, but he was far from that. This boy was full of energy and was driving me crazy as he was running all around the house like we didn't raise him right.

"RJ, sit somewhere before I make you. Right now ! "

The doorbell rang, getting my attention. I put my glass of wine down on the counter and went to answer the door, wondering who it could be.

"Uh, hi." I frowned at the young man standing on my porch. He was dressed in a normal outfit, consisting of denim shorts, a white t-shirt and black Vans. He had short black curly hair and had sunglasses resting on his nose.

"Hello, beautiful." He smiled, showing his white teeth.

"Do I know you from somewhere ? Who are you ? "

"Just a messenger. Are you Tinashe ? " I slowly nodded and before I coud ask more questions, he handed me some flowers and a gift bag that he was hiding behind him. Before I could say anything else, he was already walking away.

I closed the door, as a million of thoughts went through my mind. What was it about ? I observed the flowers and nothing seemed suspect about them, but I didn't like it one bit. They were yellow Margarets and didn't look fresh at all.

"Oh, there is a card." I said to myself as I opened it.

"Princess,

I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm sorry.

-Daddy"

I rolled my eyes, knowing damn well that he didn't mean those apologies. I didn't know what he was trying to do, but it wasn't working. He didn't even write those words himself.

I walked back in the kitchen, so I could throw the flowers in the trashcan. I opened the gift, which was banana cupcakes, what made me almost vomit.

I knew this wasn't coming from the heart and that he didn't pick it himself because everybody that knew me knew that I hated bananas.

I shook my head at and decided to throw it away too, although I didn't like to waste food because there are people out there that have none and here I had the privilege to waste some. I felt bad.

"Mommy, what are you doing ? "

"Throwing this away."

"What is it ? "

"Banana cupcakes, with whipped cream on top."

"Aw, can I have one please ? " He pouted, looking at me with puppy eyes.

I shrugged and gave him one, "here. That's the only one you're getting, so don't ask for more."

"Okay. Thank you ! " He eyed the cupcake with hungry eyes before running outside. The sun was still up and it wasn't too hot right now, so I decided to let him enjoy the good weather while I was going to start on dinner.

Problem was that I didn't know what to do, so after a few minutes of hesitation, I decided to get some help from RJ. I didn't know why I didn't just thought about doing it in the first place instead of wasting time here doing nothing.

As I stepped outside, I noticed how it was incredibly and awkwardly quiet. Usually, you would hear him scream or play with a ball. "RJ ? " I called several times, wondering if he was playing hide and seek right now. It wouldn't be the first time, but he would've made a bit of noise by now.

As I was walking further in the garden, this strong feeling kept growing as I felt my stomach turning on itself. Something was wrong, and this feeling was starting to worry me.

"Oh my God ! " I exclaimed at the most frightening sight I'd ever seen in my whole life.

No mother deserves to see this.

I ran to my baby, who was laying unconsciously on the ground and a white substance was running out his mouth. My hands immediately began shaking as I attempted to check if he was still breathing, but I couldn't because I was panicking too much to focus on the task at hand. I couldn't think straight, I could do nothing right now. I had to calm down first before doing anything and get the situation worse.

"Tinashe ? Where are y'all at ? I'm back."

I swallowed the saliva that was stuck in my throat and managed to get some words out, "help ! Help me ! "

Not even a minute later, he was rushing towards us in a panic. When he saw our son and the current state he was in, he froze for a few seconds before gaining his composure back and take action.

"What are you doing ? " He pulled his phone out as he checked on his breathing, "man fuck that, they're gonna take too long. Let's go." He picked RJ up and we were soon on our way to the hospital.

God, please don't take our son away.

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