Soongyu - For All To See

:: Apology ::

   "I'm sorry..." There it was again, Mingyu's soft tone as he spoke against Soonyoung's lips, his breath smelling of mint like he'd just brushed his teeth.
   When had Mingyu lifted his hands to cup both of Soonyoung's cheeks? Why was Soonyoung not fighting back against this? Soonyoung didn't know what to think anymore. Mingyu pressed his lips to Soonyoung's again with a bit more haste to his actions this time around, yet still staying gentle. His fingertips brushing against Soonyoung's hair, "I'm so sorry..."

   Soonyoung whimpered into the kiss, the hands on Mingyu's chest tensing as if trying to grip into Mingyu's skin. Mingyu's voice was so sincere between kisses and it wasn't long until Soonyoung tasted something salty between their lips. Soonyoung opened his eyes to find that Mingyu's eyes were closed however clear streams of tears lined his cheeks.

   Soonyoung felt a lump in his throat and once again tried to find it in himself to push Mingyu away, his head shaking slightly in an attempt to break away. But Mingyu wasn't having any of it, he moved one of his hands to the back of Soonyoung's head, softly gripping at his hair, not enough to hurt, but enough to firmly keep Soonyoung's head in place. His other hand moved away from Soonyoung's cheek and gently wrapped around Soonyoung's waist, pulling him in against Mingyu's bare chest.

   Soonyoung gasped at the feel of Mingyu's broad chest pressing against him. Even though Soonyoung was fully clothed in his blue cotton pajamas, he could feel every inch of heat seeping out of Mingyu's body wherever they made contact.
   "I'm sorry..." Mingyu's breath was rugged between kisses, the new position was allowing the kiss to deepen in intensity. Every time Mingyu spoke those words, Soonyoung felt a jab against his heart that he couldn't explain. Rather than try to fight anymore, Soonyoung had simply dropped his arms to his sides and allowed Mingyu to kiss him as tears continued to slowly drop down the tanned face of the younger.

   He didn't know how long it had been until Mingyu slowly pulled his face away, but rather than step back he placed his forehead on Soonyoung's shoulder - hands now gripping at Soonyoung's upper arms whilst his body trembled slightly, faint sobs echoing between them.
   Soonyoung felt conflicted, a part of him wanting to lift up his hands and comfort the younger male, however his body stayed frozen in place; his mind repeating over and over again, the kisses that had warmed Soonyoung's lips.

   "I'm so sorry Soonyoung-ah" Soonyoung was a little taken aback by the lack of his usual honourific and felt his body run cold as Mingyu finally let him go and stepped away. His body almost pining in disappointment at the lack of Mingyu's body heat against him. His body and mind seemed to be on entirely opposite ends of the spectrum.

   Mingyu looked down at Soonyoung's face and Soonyoung couldn't help but feel a wave of sadness confuse him at the swollen redness of Mingyu's eyes and the completely dejected look in his expression. His flushed cheeks were the only evidence that something intimate had even just happened.
   Without another word, Mingyu walked past Soonyoung and entered into his own bedroom, once again the soft clack of the door reverberating through Soonyoung's body. 

   He didn't look back over his shoulder as he simply walked into the bathroom, closing the door behind him so he could rest his back on its surface, gently dropping down to the ground, placing his arms over his knees whilst one hand moved to his face, fingertips gently caressing over the slightly swollen skin of his lips.
   Mingyu had kissed him. Over and over again he had kissed him. Although Soonyoung thought he'd tried fighting against it, had he really? Surely if he was truly fighting against it, he could have easily removed himself from the situation?

   Why had Soonyoung become hesitant? Soonyoung groaned and kicked outwards at nothing, his leg now straightened over the floor he was sat on, the image of the tanned younger male crossing through his mind. Gone was the usual toothy grin Mingyu displayed, all Soonyoung could see was the pain in his eyes after he'd kissed him.  Mingyu still owed him answers, so why was Soonyoung's heart breaking at the sound of Mingyu's repeated apologies?
   Why was his body left wanting more...?

   "Is anyone in there?" There were two gentle taps on the other side of the door and it caused Soonyoung to stir and quickly stand up straight. It sounded like Jeonghan-hyung. 
   "Sorry, I am. I won't be long, hyung!" Soonyoung cleared his throat and begun removing his clothes and headed into the shower. He'd forgotten that the other members were in their rooms whilst Mingyu and Soonyoung had been in the corridor. They could have so easily been caught and it caused Soonyoung to bite his lip and groan inwardly just thinking about it.

   Soonyoung took the quickest shower of his life and left the room after he was dry - only having his pajama bottoms back on as he'd be getting changed again anyway once back in his room. He nodded as he passed Jeonghan who was too busy yawning to acknowledge the action.

   Once in the safety of his own room Soonyoung was pleased to see Hansol still spark out asleep, his mouth slightly ajar as faint snores sounded from his throat. Hansol had such a calming aura, even when asleep that Soonyoung did feel better just by being near him. 
   Soonyoung got changed into a pair of denim jeans and a simple black t-shirt with an American slogan wrote across the front in white italic font. He took a moment to compose himself in front of the mirror and gently patted either side of his face, trying to spruce himself up and act like normal. With a decisive nod, he left the bedroom hearing Hansol finally stir and wake up. 

   Entering the living room, Soonyoung glanced around and noticed that a couple more of his non-related family had woken up. Minghao was sat at the table, book in hand with a fork in the other, a bowl of chopped up fruit in front of him. Wonwoo was sat on the other side of Minghao, also reading over Minghao's shoulder as he ate what Soonyoung assumed was cereal.
   Soonyoung couldn't tell if he felt relief or disappointment over the fact his eyes didn't find the familiar shape of Mingyu anywhere, perhaps he hadn't left his room yet?

   Soonyoung had been about to sit opposite the two book-ends when a sudden voice called him from behind, "Soonyoung!" It was a stern sounding voice, instantly recognisable as Jihoon. Soonyoung looked back over his shoulder at the smaller male and grinned widely, spinning on his heel to walk towards Jihoon with the intention of wrapping two arms around him - which as you could imagine was met with defiance and a stern hand pressing against Soonyoung's face to keep him away.
   "No."

   "Oh, but Jihoonie~!" Soonyoung briefly found himself forgetting the events of earlier and was rather thankful for Jihoon of all people being the one to call out to him. He loved winding up Jihoon and would honestly list it as one of his hobbies.
   "No, I need a favour."

   Soonyoung paused in his harassment and stepped back to look at Jihoon, "Oh? What is it?"

   "I need you and Mingyu to help me move some things to the studio."

   Soonyoung felt his stomach drop and his face drained of colour. Sure enough, the taller male appeared behind Jihoon and was looking directly at Soonyoung's face. Soonyoung met the gaze but suddenly felt intimidated and looked away - at least Mingyu's eyes didn't look swollen anymore.
   "Is that alright?" Jihoon arched an eyebrow, seemingly impatient with Soonyoung's silence.

   "Oh... Yeah, sure! Aha" Soonyoung forced his normal toothy grin and gently scratched the back of his head, doing his best to avoid looking at Mingyu, despite feeling Mingyu's gaze pierce through him.

   "Good, because we're leaving now." Jihoon spoke with authority and walked past him towards the door, already dressed and ready to leave, as was Mingyu. Soonyoung briefly raised his eyes to look at Mingyu but found he was no longer looking at him, walking past him like he wasn't even there as he followed Jihoon.
   Now that hurt.

   After what Mingyu had put Soonyoung through, he was going to act like Soonyoung wasn't even there now? Soonyoung grit his teeth and muttered under his breath before following the two males out of the dorm without so much as another word.