The Revival [Poetry] [Completed]

6. Why

I remember the day
when you came into my life vividly,
for I just kept looking at you secretly,
I tried to stop, but couldn't,
couldn't keep my eyes off you.
Then to my surprise, one beautiful day you smiled at me, for the first time,
just like an angel,an angel of whom I had been waiting for so long,
or so I thought,
after that, we even had a few exciting encounters,
but to my grief,
you stated to ignore me,
why?
that's a question in my mind which always passes by.

I hoped you'll look at me, smile at me,
just like before but you didn't,
maybe because you got bored of me,
or maybe you listen to someone's advice,
well that choice of yours for me wasn't wise,
you left me lonely,
even much more lonely than I was before,
If you wanted to end it so soon
why did you start it at first?
Why?
that's a question in my mind which always passes by.

Because anyway I never wanted you to know about my feelings towards you,
Just a silent secret crush,
of whom nobody knows,
even after knowing,
you made me go into anxiety,
you made me go into depression,
you made me push myself to the extreme edge,
when I thought you were the best,
you proved me you're the worst, worst nightmare I could ever dream of,
why did I even started liking you in the first place,
why?
that's a question in my head which always passes by.

Now I am here back in my own hell,
without any hopes,
without any hopes of coming back alive,
For I know I am already now dead inside.

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