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Ryes pov

I walk into the crowed store filled with people who I wanna run away from , all there hard stares I keep my head down making my way to the cashier.

"Hi , what is your order toady sir?" The woman asked she looks to be in her mid twenties, long silky blonde hair and bright green eyes , she was gorgeous if I wasn't gay I would definitely smash .

"Errrr , I will just take a tea please" she nods her head before setting off to make my order

After a few minutes she's comes back cup in hand as she places the steaming tea on the counter

" that will be £1.50 sir" I hand her the cash , picking the cup heading to the booth in he corner that looked out to the busy streets  of London

As I sit on the plumped red cushions a sigh of relief passes my lips my eyes fluttering shut as I take this moment to release before bringing my laptop out my bag and beginning to write taking a sip out of my tea every so often

Lost in my world of imagination I didn't hear the person approaching me

" hey , do you mind if I sit here?"The voice startled me my head snapping towards the boy

" sorry didn't mean to scare ya" he chuckled as he rubbed to back of his head , he has short blonde hair that looks to be dyed and bright blue eyes that made me feel like I was drowning in  the Atlantic ocean , his bright pale skin that had a slight tinge of pink spread here and here.

Well fuck , hes fucking beautiful 

Realising I was staring my face heated up

"Errrrr yeah you can sit here, I mean there's no one sitting there" I stumble out

He laughed lightly at my embarrassment before taking a seat across from me he sips on his foam cup before looking at my laptop

Akward silence taking over the once peaceful atmosphere , I didnt want to make to the first move knowing I would say something stupid that would probably make this more akward so I kept my mouth shut

"What ya doing?" He questions breaking the looming silence Curiosity spreads across his perfect face

"Course work for English" I lied not wanting to tell this gorgeous stranger that I was writing a book about all the myths and legends

"Hmmmm" he hums out " so your name ryan right?" Panic flows through my body wondering how he knows my name

"It on your laptop" the blonde boy smiles taking note of my panicked state ,  I let a sigh out

"good to know you weren't sent to kill me" i laugh out at my own panic realising how stupid I am for not remembering my name was on my laptop

" so you know my name , what's yours?" I question wanting a name to the face in front of me

"Andy" simple and sweet I like it

"How are old are you?" He asks "23,you?"

Please don't be to old or young

"25 , awww your younger than me" he coos "hey! I am only younger by like 2 years" i laugh

And from that day on bloomed and friendship I never thought I would have , he was the happiness I need to light up my dull and boring life

During that day he gave me his phone number, we texted and called all the time , spending as much of our free time just getting to know each other better

On Christmas he even invited me over and I got to meet his family for the first time , they were some of the nicest people  I have  ever meet in my life

Andy became such a source of freedom and happiness in my life that I can't imagine it without him , it would be gloomy and boring I would go back to being the kid with no one at college

Andy became my first love , I have never really had a boyfriend just for the fact that I thought love wasn't real . I mean it's just some chemicals in your brain how special could being in love be? When all it was , was nothing at all . I never though I would meet someone who made hurricanes start in my stomach or make me think of them 24/7 no mater how hard I tired to get them out of my head .

When I first realised what this feeling was , I was in denial. Not ready to accept that I had fallen in love with someone but as time passed by and the thoughts of Andy grew stronger I came to terms with it and promised to tell him when I got the chance , that was at the start of the year and I still haven't told him yet.

Fear of rejection holding me in the same place . The friendzone .

It was a warm summers night the sun had only just began to set meaning it was at lest 10 pm by now

Me and Andy was waking down the train tracks like teenagers would do occasionally asking the other to take a picture of them

This is it! I'm gonna tell him

I took a few deep breaths in before turning towards the boy I have grown so close to

"Andy I need to tell you something"

Omg , deep breaths you can do this !

"What is it ?" His attention now being focused me

My palms sweating and my hands shaking I took one last deep breath before muttering out the words I have been wanting to tell him for months now

" I am gay and I'm in love with someone"

Fuck! That's not what I was meant to say . Damn it !

I groan slightly rolling my eyes at my own stupidity for not saying I was I love with him

"Really? I mean being gay is okay and I don't judge you for it but who do you love ? If you don't mind me asking" andy rushes out as he now came closer to me taking one of my shaking hands in his small petite hands

I look down not wanting to see his reaction, I gulp my heart racing a thousand miles per hour

"You" I whisper quietly silence filled my ears

"W-What?" He stuttered out his hand losing grip on mine clinging on by my fingers

I look up at him tears brimming the edge of my eyes

" I'm in love with you Andy folwer , I have been since the day I meet you . I know your probably straight but I could help but fall for you and I'm sorry that I did I don't want to ruin what we have but I had to to tell you " I spoke with more confidence

I feel his hand slip away from mine

That's it . I lost him.

I turn around , stuffing my hands In my pockets tears making there way down my face

I walked away from the person i loved

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Part 2??