『 I Won't Run Anymore』

Part 26 - Falling

"I could ask you the same thing.~"

I instinctively leant into his palm, embracing the warmth and comfort I so badly craved at the moment. Everything was still a mess in my mind... and his affectionate notion is more than welcoming... My eyes closed for a second as I breathed deep, relaxing myself as eyes opened half lidded to stare back up lazily at the demon king. Mephisto rubbed my cheek with his thumb, my head tilting into his touch even more; like a cat starved of attention. My head was tilted up with the little finger that was placed under my chin so I would face him fully... I can't read his expression... just what is running through his mind? This man was... he was such an enigma... I've never understood a single thing about him since day one... I watched him lean closer to me, a hot sugar scent filling my nose and warmth caressing my face every few seconds with each breath he took. My eyes closed as his nose touched my own, running from tip to bridge and then back down again as it rested there. Bump... bump... bump... bump... I could still feel his heartbeat... it was a wonderful feeling under my fingertips... my other hand moved from his jacket to cover his own that still held my face, keeping the warmth in place as I rubbed my thumb over gloved knuckles. His hand was so much larger than mine...

"Samael..."

I never got to finish... my mouth silenced in that instant by his. A sharp shock ran down my spinal cord for a second, the tingling relaxing into soft warmth along my chest as my body accepted it... I pressed myself against him, running my hand that was against his chest up his torso to sit at the nape of his neck as my fingers played with the small strands of hair that lay there. I never knew his hair would be so... soft... My lips pressed back against his in a more than gentle kiss, his mouth moving slowly against my own as to not frighten me? Maybe... the only sound in the room our light nose breathing and soft lip smacking as he pulled away ever so lightly, lips barely touching as he dipped to kiss me again in a repeated process whilst holding me even closer. He broke the kiss completely, my eyes vaguely opening to stare at him and watching as he retreated not 3 centimetres away from me.

"My dear... my belle... my Alice..."

He caressed my face once more, my hand that lay tangled in his violet locks moving to cup his own cheek; mimicking his gestures.

"Samael... what are you doing to me?"

The demon smiled a little, pressing his nose against mine once more.

"I am simply showing you the affection I have built up for you since our first meeting."

"Why?"

"Why not?"

I blinked up at the demon briefly, why did he always elude my questions? Why did he always have to play the mysterious stranger?

"But you don't trust me."

"And you don't trust me."

"With good reason."

"And what makes you believe my reasoning isn't as good as yours?~"

"Because you've never been honest from the start."

His thumb caressed my cheek once more as he pulled his nose away from mine, giving me a full view of his smiling face.

"I suppose I haven't.~"

That was his retaliation? No elaboration or anything? This demon... he just... I sighed a little and ran my hand down his face, my fingers trailing in his goatee as I lowered it to rest against his chest once more. Bump... bump... bump... How can our hearts beat? When the skins we wear are nothing but corpses? The hearts aren't our own, so how can we claim to feel? I am the same as I was when I was alive and human... from what little I remember of it, did the embryos feelings not matter? Did this demon before me ever feel what the man's skin originally felt before it was ripped away from him? Or are we really... just demons? I removed my hand from Mephisto's chest, my other falling from the hand he still lay on my face before turning my head to remove his touch, my cheek cooling instantly.

"I need to go."

His grip loosened from my hip before falling to his side completely, his face retaining its trademark smirk.

"Very well, I knew some soul searching was bound to happen to you sooner or later.~"

"I just need some answers, and I know I won't get them from you."

"My belle~ you hurt my feelings!~"

His hands crossed over his heart as his face twisted into mock hurt, my own eyes narrowing at the demon as I straightened my spine. Such arrogance...

"You've lived for a very long time Mephisto... has there been a day since you were born that you ever told the truth?"

My teeth clicked together in mild anger as my senses returned, mind working once again now I was finally away from him. I was upset and distraught... and he took advantage of the situation... I was played... I kept my teeth ground, siding with my better judgement to turn away and leave before I said or did something that could twist into a dangerous situation for me. I walked over to the door, halting upon his voice once I had the door open ajar.

"Have fun with whatever you're looking for.~"

I turned to look the smug demon in the eyes, my hand clamped tightly around the golden door knob... my knuckles were probably turning white... he made me so... so frustrated! His flamboyant expression never changed as I finally tore away my eyes and left the room. I had to get away from him for the time being... It's so hard to process anything about that man. He was a liar and a very secretive man... one that can't be trusted... yet I believed a lot of things he said, I want to believe what he says. But since I receive more deceit from him than anything else he makes it so difficult to... I stopped in my wild steps to press my middle finger up to my lower lip; remembering our kiss. Why did I... Why did I let him do that? Why did I return it and hold him too? I was upset of course, and my mind wasn't working at normal capacity... But... I know the wild beating in my chest confirms it... but I... I don't want to believe it. I can't be falling for such a deceptive demon! I'm playing right into his hands, and I have been since the very beginning... My nail dug gently into my lip, forcing me back into reality as all previous thoughts got thrown from memory and started to speed walk once more out of the building I was in. I need answers... and I need some air...