theycallmelucas: when are you gonna leave
itsjenobitch: when i see his plane leave
itsjenobitch: when there's no chance of him choosing me anymore
theycallmelucas: i'm so sorry jeno
itsjenobitch: i was gonna say its okay but it really isn't
itsjenobitch: we finally had it right, we'd finally gotten our shit together and loved each other and it was so good
itsjenobitch: and now he's moving halfway across the world and he's gonna forget all about me and i'll be here, still clinging onto him like some heartbroken teenager.
theycallmelucas: i know. it's gonna be really, really fucking hard for a while. normal things are going to feel so weird because he isn't there doing them with you- sleeping, shopping, hell even showering. you'll stand in the shower for hours, hoping that the heat of the water could replace the cold spots where his hands are supposed to be, but it isn't gonna work. nothing's gonna work for a while, or at least its gonna feel like that
theycallmelucas: soon enough you'll wake up and it'll feel easier. you can look at the other side of the bed without feeling how empty it is, you look at people and stop pointing out everything about them that isn't jaemin. maybe you'll start seeing other people, just as a way to get him off your mind at first, or maybe you won't because everyday is going to feel too soon for awhile. but one day you'll notice that everything isn't too him for you anymore. it's not about him anymore. it'll be about you. and yes, you'll miss him so much, and no one will ever feel the same because dammit jeno i refuse to believe that boy isn't your soulmate. but you'll find a way to made the cold patches a little warmer, to makes things feel a little closer to normal.
theycallmelucas: basically, what i'm saying is that you'll be okay. all 16 of us are gonna be there to make sure of it and to hold you when it hurts. we've got you, always.
itsjenobitch: i know and i love you all a lot
itsjenobitch: but i think i need to be alone right now
theycallmelucas: okay bub<3
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