Lucky Lucy is Where? (Naruto X Fairy Tail Fanfic)

Chapter 37

"What do you think it means? First I make you relive a tragic memory of the past, then you make me promise not to do it again, ignore my entire existence, don't listen to my reasoning, jump out of a window and then call me out and sit me down not saying anything," Lucy stressed and got up to start pacing, "I'm freaking out here," she said and turned to look at him, trying to keep her tears at bay,

"I never wanted to stress you, I just didn't know what to do," Kakashi said and ran a hand through his hair, "for crying out loud Lucy, what did you want me to say?" He groaned in frustration,

"It didn't matter what it was as long as it was something. So at least then I would know if you were angry or upset or just something," she sighed out the last part as if she was exhausted,

"Okay fine, you want to know how I feel? You want to know that I can't sleep at night, that I keep replaying it over in my head until I can't breathe," he started to rant and Lucy's eyes widened at his words but Kakashi didn't stop, "You want to know that I've actually had that nightmare before? Yeah, not long after you first moved in, I had that nightmare. At first it was Rin but then when I looked back up at her, she changed into you," Kakashi said and he started to breathe heavily, sweat was pouring down his face and dampening his mask, "I hurt you, twice... with the same hand," he said hoarsely, his throat had gone dry and it felt like he hadn't had a drink in days. Lucy, on the other hand, didn't know what to say, what could she say?

Nothing could change what happened and if Lucy was being honest with herself, she wouldn't change it even if she could. She saved a life, a life that never had a chance to use their gifts for something good, something better than what they were doing before and that made her feel even guiltier. She could have saved Kakashi from experiencing all of this pain but she knew that she wouldn't change her mind even if she could. Lucy looked down at her hands, her brow furrowed and her fists clenched, she sniffed. Kakashi looked at her slightly, "I'm sorry Kakashi," Lucy whispered to him, "I'm sorry that I'm putting you through all of this," tears came to her eyes at this point and she was desperately trying to hold them back, "it was just something that I had to do," she said,

"what do you mean?" Kakashi demanded, "you had to do it?"

"once I had realised that Haku never intended to kill any of us, I knew that I couldn't let him die and the idiot that he is he went and threw himself in front of Zabuza. I didn't know what else to do, I didn't have enough time to push him out of the way," Lucy took a deep breath, "so at the last second I released the chakra that I had stored up and focused it around my stomach," she paused and looked up at him, "I didn't mean to hurt you so much," she ended in a whisper, Kakashi sighed,

"I know, it's just who you are. You'll do anything to save someone, even if it means giving your own life," Kakashi replied to her in an exhausted tone,

"If you know then why won't you talk to me?" Lucy whispered to him,

"Because I'm scared," Kakashi snapped at her unintentionally his patience running thin and she looked at him confused,

"Scared? Of what?" She wondered out loud and Kakashi sighed in anger, it was starting to boil in his chest. Lucy could be so smart and intuitive but sometimes as dense as the mountain that the Hokages faces had been carved into,

"Of hurting you, you idiot," he yelled at her and she only blinked at him,

"Hurting me?" She repeated,

"Yes, hurting you. Lucy, I don't know if you realise this but after I stuck my hand through your stomach, I hit you, with the same hand," Kakashi stressed for the umpteenth time. Lucy sighs as her eyes softened slightly at him, she grabbed his right hand gently. Kakashi tensed as she touched him, Lucy slowly brought his hand up to rest on her cheek as she took a deep breath,