Somehow
I have changed
In a way that scares me
I look myself in the mirror
I do not look the same
Something in me is different
Loneliness
So strong
I haven't felt it in years
My heart aches
I never asked
I never wanted
To be lonely again
But more than that has changed
I look into my eyes
And see a cruel stranger
Heartless
Hiding from pain
By hurting others
I miss happiness
Not the fake stuff
The real feel-good happiness
I miss loyalty
I miss feeling love and protection
I miss being cared for
Have I become so cruel?
Have I changed so much?
That people will no longer care
No longer love
No longer be loyal
To a friend as cruel as I?
