Long Lost Love (completed)

feel better?

emma- i thought it was someone else sorry why you calling blocked?

santiago- i kept trying to call but you didnt answer so i thought

emma- im sorry babe its been a long day well week

santiago- you ok?

emma- yea..

she wanted to break down he could hear it

santiago- my moms coming out sunday come with her babe i wanna see you please?

emma- i dont know ..

santiago- .. i know what happened and no they didnt tell me i heard the news threw the homie about you know so i asked them about it and they kept trying to change the subject until they told me.. emma babe you ok? please tell me im here for you?

emma- how are you here for me.. i feel so alone scared .. i been using again to fuck i hate myself! .. i feel dirty digusting .. all i wanna feel

santiago- you wanna feel numb have those feelings disappear you wanna feel nothing but then you wanna feel like your old self again

emma- yea exactly but i dont think if i can go back .. ill understand if you

santiago- dont you dare say that emma i love you fuck that fool hes lucky i wasnt out cuz fuck .. im sorry i wasnt there to protect you to defend you im sorry im not there to hug you and tell you everything will be ok! .. shit i hate myself .. but look i got in the program there saying 7 months babe im gonna work hard i swear to get out this shit hole and be there with you i promise

she started to cry

emma- you still wanna be with me?

santiago-why wouldnt i haw? emma i fucking love you! please babe dont put yourself down please dont cry.. i love you your my world im sorry this happened..

emma- i love you too i promise ill get better

santiago- even?

emma-hmm i promise but you really serious about getting out?

santiago- yup im gonna do everything to get out .. but for now i need you to be strong and continue fighting fuck all this shit the thoughts the urges .. emma your the strongest most beautiful girl i know and im lucky enough to call you mine

emma- im lucky to have you babe and im so proud of you for going and committing to all this .. ill be there sunday ill talk to my work

santiago- quit it babe i know evelyn aint gonna let up and im sorry about that to .. i was angry and i wanted revenge i know thats a really stupid excuse

emma- haha i told her off the other day

santiago- really what you say? haha

emma- that when you where fucking her you where thinking of me haha she went so quiet after that she left

santiago- hahaha oo wow but its true

emma- i know cuz it was the same way with me haha ..

the call was coming to an end