Anamchara

Give Me One Reason

Give me one reason to stay here

-Tracey Chapman

The incessant buzz of my electric blue alarm clock signaled the start of my day. Groaning I pulled myself out of bed, with much resentment, and drug myself until I was standing in front of my en-suite bathroom mirror. Looking at the mess I became in my sleep, I poked and prodded at myself trying to figure out where I could improve. I'm an average height, standing at around 5'5" with brown hair and blue eyes. I have a petite figure, but I have curves and a semi-flat stomach. I have two younger brothers named Chase and Carter and an older sister named Brandi. My mother and my father hold the Alpha and Luna titles in my pack. We're called the Nightmare Moon pack. We're located in the Northwest corner of the United States. Most of us relocated here from Ireland after an accident involving the last Alpha of our pack. My father was originally the Beta, otherwise known as the second-in-command. He was appointed the Alpha title when we claimed this land. Since my family was not the rightful blood heir for the title, my family can either choose to hand the title off to the new Beta's son, or one of us when it's time for him to step down. With Brandi being the eldest of us, at 17, my father will probably wait to see who she is mated to before deciding. 

Mates, that's a topic I love to brush up on. It's actually kind of what keeps me going in this cold, heartless, depressing hell. You see, when you turn 16 your wolf has usually fully matured enough to find your other half. Your Mate. Soulmate. Anamchara. Whatever you want to call them. Your wolf lives and breathes for them. If they die, you're sure to be going soon after. Some don't, but it's hard to want to live after that. Or so I'm told. The connection between two mates is unbreakable if consummated at least. I'm waiting for the day that I find mine in hopes that they'll be able to take me from the twenty-four-seven abuse from my family and pack. Be the one reason for me to stay in this treacherous. Despite being the Alpha's youngest daughter I was quite despised around the pack. I've heard rumors about a prophecy being the reason, but that's just what it is, a rumor. 

"Amalia Rose White GET YOUR MOTHER FUCKING ASS DOWN HERE AND MAKE THE FOOD BEFORE I BEAT YOUR ASS TO A PULP!" That would be my daddy dearest. I race to get ready not even bothering to put makeup on because I was told by my own brother that I look terrible with it, even though he says I look terrible without it, and I run down the stairs as quickly as I can only to be greeted with my jaw getting broken, by a hard punch, guess who threw it, if you guessed my dick of a dad... You would be wrong it was my slut of a sister.

" Stupid, fat ass runt shouldn't you be making my breakfast?" I stood shocked "Well what the fuck are you waiting for an invitation? Get to cooking!"

I run into the kitchen and start making enough eggs, bacon, sausage, and pancakes to feed 700 hungry wolves, then I grab my bag and head for the door, hoping to make a clean escape, luckily for me most of my tormentors already left for school. On my way to school I sang myself happy birthday, guess who turns 16 today? Today is the day I find my mate, I hope he rescues me from this hell hole! As I walked through the doors I got a strong scent of chocolate and cinnamon, suddenly my wolf started shouting "Mate" and then told me to follow the scent, which I gladly did. I found myself running into somebody, expecting my body to hit the floor, I prepped for the impact. But I never came in contact, instead, I felt tingles shoot through my body, I looked up and found myself looking at the beautiful blue eyes of the schools bad boy, Axel Knight, the notorious bad boy, the school's playboy, and my own personal nightmare. He pushed me away and I don't think I've ever been more relieved to have my mate push me away. Besides my family, he was my worst tormentor. "Everyone, gather around I have news to tell you!" He called out. Everyone staring filing in from the classrooms and hallways and followed my devious mate to the courtyard where he stood tall on one of the tables close by and said cynically "I have some news to share." A hush fell over the crowd, eager to get a sip of the tea he was spilling. When Blake continued "Amalia Rose White is my mate everyone!" everyone gasped and looked for me out in the crowd. I was too busy trying to avoid everyone's gaze when Blake started talking again. "No one, Amalia, in their right fucking mind would want a mate as ugly, fat, stupid, and as worthless as you." As he said these words I feel my heart shattering into a million little pieces. But in my mind I had already prepared myself, it was really no surprise. I think my heart was more breaking at the fact that I would truly never get away from this torment. "I, Axel Colton Knight, reject you as my mate Amalia Rose White!" After he finished speaking my wolf was howling in pain and I just stood there numbly, I felt like crying but I would not give him the satisfaction of my tears. I stood up on the chair closest to me and declared; "I, Amalia Rose White, accept your rejection, Axel Colton Knight." After I said this Blake looked at me with hurt in his eyes but quickly shook it off and put his signature smirk back to cover his emotions, as he started getting down off the table I shouted for him to stop and said "Wait! I'm not finished. I accept your rejection, Axel, because I don't want to be mated with some cold-hearted, arrogant, self-centered, ass who thinks he is the center of the universe and necessary to everyone's fucking survival. When the truth is your really fucking not! So get off your high and mighty god damn throne and take a look at what you are loosing, because I promise to the fucking Moon Goddess that you will regret ever rejecting me. Even if you don't see it now, you will soon, and that's a mother fucking promise Axel!" by the end of my rant I was walking out of the school's doors and shifting into my wolf. I ran all the way to the pack house and shifted back before I went inside. I could tell no one was home, and then ran up to the attic that also served as my room, I grabbed a purple duffle bag out from underneath my bed and packed all my clothes, all my necessities, and a blanket. After I was finished packing I grabbed a piece of paper and a pen and wrote,

Dear whoever,

If your reading this I just want you to know that you shouldn't worry about me (even though I know you won't, because who could worry about an ugly fat ass piece of shit like me huh?) anyways, Brandi, Carter, and Chase thank you. You guys hardened me up for the life I'm heading off too. Nothing like a little "tough love" to get me where I need to be. Right? Brandi, I sincerely hope you find your mate and stop being the heartless, bitchy, insolent child that you are. As for Carter and Chase, I thought you guys were my brothers, the one who would do anything for their sister, the ones would care, love, stick up, and protect me, but what you did was the complete opposite, you were my tormentors along with Brandi, mom, dad and the rest of the fucking pack, that I'm no longer a part of thank fucking goodness. For mom and dad, I thought you were supposed to love and cherish me? You were supposed to stop all tormenting but no, you had to be the ones to torment me after a full day of bullying. How the hell did you guys make it as an Alpha and Luna you guys are fucking terrible parents and people! I have run away and don't plan on coming back... like ever... don't search for me (I don't think you would anyways) I wouldn't be surprised if you threw a party for my departure, so just forget about me, it shouldn't be hard to do, but by the time you read this I will have been on my way. 

Yours truly,

Amalia Rose White...

I set the note down on my bed and jumped out of the window, as soon as I landed I shifted into my frosty furred wolf, and ran far from the place I used to wish to call home.