Upside down : Ruel

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"Well what else was I supposed to tell you? That I can't fall asleep at night, because I'm worried that I won't wake up? Or because I can't hear the usual cars and midnight business going on?"

"You feel that?" suddenly the conversation got deep.

"Scared that I won't wake up, in a new country where I know nobody, and nobody knows me?" I asked looking away from his eyes.

"Or that I can't fall asleep because everything sounds different?" I chuckled at the last part, knowing it was the first one.

"You know it's okay to feel that way, both ways, right?"

"I don't know is it? I have all these thoughts that I don't tell anyone, I just plaster on a smile and act like I'm good"

"If you don't tell anyone, then why are you telling me?" he spoke in such a deep tone that made goose bumps appear all over my skin.

"Probably because you don't know me, you don't know what I've been through, done or said"

"Well I want to"

"You really don't"

"I don't think you know what I want to or not" he chuckled at my stubborn statement.

"Life was just starting to fall into place for me, I started to get friends, started normal school and had a good life, then I moved"

"You keep making this move seem like this big negative thing, what if it's just what you needed? What if those people you call your friends, really just pitied you?"

I didn't know how to respond to that, because I knew he was right.

"You don't know shit"

"I don't, I'm just speaking in theories, but a lot of people do things out of pity" he said, what he said with a knowingly voice, like he had been through it.

"Did people do that to you?"

"Yes and no, people haven't exactly pitied me, they've been fake towards me, expecting me to give them something I have"

"What do you mean?"

"You're at a concert right now?"

"Yeah"

"With who?"

"My brother, he's in there probably having a great time"

"Who are you expecting to see?" he asked almost with a devilish smile on his face, like he knew something I didn't.

"Some guy named Ruel"

"Yeah"

"Wait is this on some other fanfiction shit level, where you're Ruel, and we just had a deep conversation about shit?" I asked laughing.

"Well yeah"

"You say 'yeah' a lot" I commented, avoiding the topic of him being Ruel, I didn't know who Ruel really was, just that he was a singer, and his song played on the radio the other day.

So I googled his song, and found out he was playing a show today near by where I live, so I bought the ticket, needing a distraction.

"I know I do, but you're just avoiding the topic" he smiled, his smile just as bright as the stars in the sky.

"Well if you're Ruel, then who is performing right now?"

"The warm up band"

"Why is it I don't believe you?" I arched my right brow at him, not believing him, even though he looked sincere.

"Well let me prove it to you"

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What would you do if this happened to you?

I would tell him that I've done some creepy shit and so on, and wrote a book about him just because I get nervous and ramble on in every situation where the person is new to me. 

Probably embarrass myself a lot, like a lot. I tend to do that, a lot. 

I even had a period of time, where I'd start talking about my two guy cousins if I met new people and didn't know what to say. 

I've always been a mess, smh. 

And hey two chapters in a day. Am I productive or am I productive. 

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