Hybrid

Chapter 18: Trusted Pleasure

*AUTHOR'S NOTE*

Hey guys. I know its been ages since I've updated, and I'm really sorry. I haven't really been in the right mind set to write as I've had a lot of things going on in my personal life. I've made this chapter extra long and I hope that doesn't both yous that much. I do hope you enjoy this update but I cant tell when the next one will be. I do hope soon but I wouldn't hold my breath.

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Chapter 18: Trusted Pleasure

'Our room.' Both Jess and Kathrin commented. I nibbled my lip more as I looked up at him. Nervousness hit next; then fear.
My body was too use to what had happened to me, I was worried I'd disappoint him.
My excitement died and I pulled my hand out of his and stopped walking, holding my hand in front of me as I looked to the ground.
"Kadin?" I heard Derick's voice, the worry lace through his tone. His warm hands held my shoulders; I refused to look up at him, "Kadin? What's wrong?" he asked softly but I still didn't look up at him.

"Kadin? Please look at me? Did I do something wrong?" he asked and I couldn't help the soft chuckle that left me, "No, you didn't do anything wrong," I managed to say, still not looking at him.
I wiped my tears away as soon as they started to fall, "I-I... I just...."
I felt his strong arms wrap around me, encasing me in a possessive hold that could ensure anyone that they were safe.
"He can't harm you any longer Kadin. He won't touch you again. Not in that way; not ever," Derick's hold was warm and tight. I could hear his voice vibrate through his chest, as I pressed against it.
I knew he was trying. I could tell that everyone was trying to help me settle but I still felt out of place. Still felt trapped and all alone.
"I'm damaged," I finally spoke, my voice not as strong as I wanted it to be. "I don't know how to shake my fears," I whispered and hid my face against his chest, my shoulders starting to shake.
"You won't shake them." I heard Derick's firm voice and that statement caused me to look up at him; surprised by what he said, "What-"
"You will never shake them, Kadin. They are a part of your past and have haunted you all these years," he told me and lifted my arms to reveal my scars from all the needles and cuts my arms had suffered, "These will forever remind you of what happened to you. I know that the time spent there is still fresh in here," he said, and lightly tapped my forehead, "But you have people around you that want to help you move past this and help you have a better life," he continued to explain to me as I mutely starred at him, surprised at his words. He gazed down at me, concern glinting in his beautiful eyes, "Let me help you." He was almost begging; I could hear it in his voice. I almost felt terrible for always pushing him away.
I looked up at him for long moments before I leaned up, resting my hands along his jawline and planted my lips against his. He responded instantly, wrapping his bulky muscular arms around my waist, trapping my body against his.
He pulled away abruptly and shifted me in his arms to carry me bridal style toward the pack house, my arms looped around his neck. His movements were quick as he walked through the halls. I kept looking up at him, the look in his eyes, the determination. I bit the inside of my cheek, my excitement returned a little, but so did my fear.
'He's different to Nathan...,' I heard Kathrin.
'I know he won't hurt us,' Jess commented firmly. I wanted so badly to believe them both.
Derick shifted me again to cradle me in one arm and opened the door, stepped in and close it with his foot, returning to carry me in both arms till we reached the bed.
Nervousness hit me in the chest hard, coupled with anxiety. I glanced up at him as he eased me down onto the soft surface of the bed, closer to the centre. He crawled on, not looking away from me. His intense stare made me blush and look away.
"We'll take it slow," I heard his husky voice which made me blush even more. He crawled up and rested himself between my legs and supported his weight on his forearms, his face inches from mine, causing me to lay back on the bedding, "I won't do anything that will make you uncomfortable. If it's too much for you, tell me and I'll stop," he told me and I nodded slightly, "I'm a little scared," I whispered honestly and moved my hands to rest against his chest, then moved to hold his shoulders.
"Don't be," he said softly and leaned in a little, "I won't hurt you," he mumbled before leaning in the full way and pressed his firm lips against mine.
I allowed him to guide, take lead. His kisses were fierce and full of passion. His tongue was hot against mine; his taste was of sweet strawberries and I suddenly couldn't get enough. My arms wrapped firmly around his neck, my legs wrapping around his waist. My hands found their way into his shortish hair and held firm, tightening on his soft silky strands. I heard a soft growl come from his chest which was against mine; I could feel the vibrations from his growl against my breasts and I moaned against his hungry mouth.
I felt his hips rock against mine and a surge of raw pleasure raced through me, forcing a soft gasp to pass my lips, only for it to become lost in Derick's own mouth. I felt one of his large hands on my thigh; fingers splayed to hold it tight against his hip as he continued to rock.
My fingers moved from his hair and found their way to the front of his shirt and with one forceful tug; I ripped the material from his body.
A snarl tore from his chest as I raked my nails down his front as we kissed each other fiercely. He lifted his hands to my shirt and did the same, ripping it clean from my body; successfully notching up my desire higher.
I felt no fear now.
No anxiety at the idea if what would happen.
I felt his hands move to my back and to my bra clasp, his fingers slowly unclasping it, making it become loose and that's when my nervousness returned. I reached up and placed my hands on his chest gently; pushing enough to make him stop, "Derick...," my voice betrayed my true feelings, sounding more throaty and needy.
Something in my voice had stopped him though and he pulled away enough to look down at me, "What's wrong? Have I don't something wrong?" he asked softly and I could see his wolf was at the front, seeing him through Derick's now onyx eyes.
"No, no... I-I..,"
"Sshhh... Kadin, shh. I can see you're nervous. Do you want me to stop?"
I could see in his eyes that it had pained him to say that; could hear it in his voice. I could feel how hard he was and I know my body had responded to him.
"C-can we switch places?" I asked softly, keeping my bra in place. A soft growl left him but he rolled onto his back. I straddled his waist and then slowly removed my bra properly. I blushed brightly and moved my hands to lean down, pressing my hands to steady myself as I leaned down to kiss him. His hands held my hips firmly and I started to rock my hips on him; I could feel his hard length pressing up against me.
I felt better being in control like this. The feeling of skin to skin contact was incredible, the sparks I felt were intensified and I gave a soft moan against his lips. His hands moved from my hips and his arms wrapped firmly around my waist, keeping me in place.
My body responded to him in all the best ways but my mind still held me back. I pulled away from the kiss and rested my forehead against his chest, my eyes squeezed shut. I heard him sigh and he ran one of his hands up and down my back in a comforting motion, "It's ok Kadin," his voice was gently as he spoke.
"I'm sorry," I whispered gently.
"You have nothing to be sorry for Kadin. Nothing," he told me softly yet firmly.
"But I worked you up to this state and I thought I was going to go through with it too, but...,"
"Kadin, it's fine. You're just not ready mentally. I understand," he stated and I sighed this time. My body ached a little and I'm sure his did too.
Derick suddenly chuckled and I frowned; sitting up to look at him to see a big smirk on his face, "What's so funny," I asked and folded my arms over my chest.
"Well, at least we made progress," he said and looked at my chest. I followed his gaze to my bare chest and I blushed a little, "Like you haven't see them before," I stated softly and he shrugged, "I haven't seen them properly. That time in the woods count because I was trying to earn your chest and keep you with me," his voice was a deep rumble as he spoke. I looked to him, keeping my gaze locked with him. I swallowed hard and blushed more, glancing down at my breasts, suddenly feeling self-conscious and insecure. I moved my arms to cover them but a growl came from Derick. My eyes immediately looked up at him, his dark intense gaze was fixated on my breasts. His hands flexed on my hips and I nibbled my lower lip, moving my hands to rest on his bare chest, supporting my upper body weight and effectively pushing my breasts together. Another low growl vibrated from his chest, causing a blush to spread over my cheeks, "Derick... you're starring," I whispered, my own voice husky with the desire that started to rise in me.
" I know... I'm trying to keep my wolf under control," he grumbled, his hands shifting from my hips to my waist, the sparks I felt from his hands on my waist made me shiver, "And with you as you are... I'm finding it very hard to pull myself together," he added and managed to tear his eyes away from my chest to look up at me.
"You're holding back for me?" I asked, what sounded like amazement in my voice.
A frown fell on his beautiful face, "Of course," he grated and his hands flexed on my waist. I bit my lip and looked down. With where I was sitting, I could feel his cock straining against his jeans. I glanced at Derick and then sat up straight and gave a tentative rock of my hips, earning a deep snarl from him; his hold on my waist now tight.
"Kadin... let me calm down... if you keep that up I'm going to lose it," Derick warned. I looked at him again, his eyes closed now, muscles straining beautifully.
I leaned down slowly, my front now pressed against him and his eyes opened as I leaned in and kissed him firmly. He groaned softly and wrapped his arms around my waist. I rocked my hips more, earning another growl that vibrated through his chest, feeling the sensation against my breasts, making me shiver.
I drove my tongue into his mouth, lapping it against his own. Derick took control of the kiss, it becoming a hot fierce kiss, that left me panting and moaning softly.
He rolled us which caused me to gasp. Derick then took over the movements of out lower bodies, rocking his hips firmly against mine. The way he moved his hips against my own, measured thrusts as he took my mouth.
"Kadin...," he groaned against my mouth, "... you have me so hard for you," he muttered as he moved to rest his forehead against my neck, still rock his hips; still driving my lust higher.
"I'm trying to hold my wolf back, Kadin, I really am. Gods, tell me no Kadin. I know you're not ready but damnit, what you're doing is sending me over," he explained, giving a measured thrust to emphasize his point. His mouth left an open kiss on my neck, his teeth grazing my skin gently. A shiver raked through me and a moan escaped my lips. "Kadin... tell me no," he growled, giving another thrust and this time he nipped my skin, making me gasp, my back arching a little.
Words were lost to me. Yes, I was nervous. I was scared about the idea of sex with anyone ever again. However, what I was feeling now clouded my mind. Derick was trying. He was trying so hard to do right by me. I found this both surprising and heartening. I glanced down at him to the best of my ability. His features were tight with tension. A hand held possessively clutched over my hip, while his other braced his upper body weight. My hands were braced on his shoulders. I made a quick decision.