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I caress the cold and smooth metal as I trace the knife with my finger. I slowly rap my fingers around the plastic handle and lift it to examine it closely. The blade catches another ray of sunlight and makes a glare on the wall. When I was a little kid, it made me so happy to spot these glares. It was magical back then. I smile at the memory. With the tiny smile still placed on my lips, I bring the knife to my wrist, to the same spot where I have the scar. I feel the sharp edges touch my skin. I am not scared. I am at peace. It feels strange, this calmness. Everything around me stills except my hand that is moving to make the cut.
As I lift it up to make a split, I hear the doorbell ring. The sound breaks my trans and I drop the knife and step back until my back hits the wall. I am not sure what I was doing? How did I get here? Last thing I remember was crashing on my couch. I am confused. I start trembling unable to remember. Was I sleeping? Was I sleep-walking? Was I aware? If so, How could I do that? How can I be so selfish? How can I leave my mother? What would have happened to her?
Someone rings the bell again and knocks loudly. I swallow and try to pull myself together. I tie my rope and walk to the door and just as I lift my hands to unlock, I recall the night before and freeze. This could be Matt. He could be here to do it all again. I start quivering involuntarily. I take small steps back away from the door. No no no. It can't happen again. I won't let it.
The knocks comes again much louder than the previous one. Whoever was on the other side of the door, must have heard me as I approached the door. They know I am hear. I look around the apartment looking for an escape. There is nowhere to go or hide. I start to panic and I feel myself choke. Just as I am about to have a full on panic attack, a voice speaks from the other side.
"Ms. Green, I am here to deliver a message from Mr. Harris. I have slipped it under your door. Please read. I will be waiting for you outside the apartment".
His voice is professional like he had been train to say just enough words to convey the message. Nothing more. Nothing less. I look down and there is an envelope with my name on it. I stare at it unable to comprehend what's happening. Am I having another episode? Is this real? Did Ethan really send me a letter?
If I am not fantasizing, what is this? More importantly why? Why now? Why today? Why when so many times things are happening? Why is he not here? Why a letter? Shouldn't he be here if he wants me back? Does he still love me? Is it an apologize? Should I forgive him? Can we forget the years or heartbreak? Can we move past what happened earlier today?
I am still staring at the envelope like it holds the key to the universe. I should pick it up and read it. Whatever was in there, it is still written by Ethan. He has made contact after so many years. It is better than nothing. I wipe my hands with the robe I am wearing and pick it up. It says "Ms. Amy Green". Not "Amy" or "Am", like he used to call me. While I open it, I tell myself not to expect anything. Especially anything romantic. After I unfold the letter, the first thing that hits me is Ethan's handwriting. The same handwriting that I found many mornings as soon as I woke up, with messages about the previous night together, about the breakfast that he cooked as I slept in, about the dates in evenings, about the little gifts, flowers or just a simple "Love you". Tears well up my eyes as memory after memory flashes. I hold back from going down the memory lane and read the letter. It says
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Fight for me (Completed)
RomanceAmy Green knew she was too good for Ethan Harris. She knew falling in love with a hot millionaire like him was stupid. She knew Ethan falling for her was crazy. She knew marrying him was insane. Yet she shut her brain and followed her heart until he...