kiss my cuts ❥ poetry

starry starry night.

never have i ever experienced a bigger eye-opener,
i've never been so lost and broken;
i came to a conclusion.
i took my family for granted.

my cousin passed away
two days before my birthday.
tell me when am i ever happy?

i try to force myself that
"i'm okay",
but i'm not.
"i'll move past this",
but i won't.

i'm up late at night pondering over what could've been;
and i know it's not going to bring him back.

i'll keep him alive in my memory but never in my arms.
and i hate myself for that.

-loving vincent