Taming the Devil (EDITED AND REVISED)

Chapter-26

We stopped outside my office. He opened door for me and stared at anything but me. So i decided to crack the ice.

"What's bothering you jason?" I raised a brow.

He sighed. "I know you don't want to talk about it. But you know how i feel about you. And now suddenly that wilson guy showed up out of nowhere."

"What is your point?" I was slightly annoyed.

"My point is promise me that you won't leave me for him. You are the first ever woman who makes me go happy, crazy, possessive at same damn time." He told me looking straight in eye.

I sighed loudly. "Look jason, i know you are nice guy. You can have any woman you want. But i cannot promise you anything right now. Things are messed up and i need answers. I don't know what micheal is upto. And im definitely not in position to have a relationship right now."

"I understand. Anyways have a good day. I will call you later." He forced a smile and drove away.

I pinched bridge of my nose in frustation and stomped to my office.
Rest of the day went in talking with clients, inspecting files, etc.

After an eventful day i came home. As usual i had no mood to cook so i ate cereal. It was eleven pm by the time i finished everything.

I slid in my bed and covered myself with my warm duvets. There was no trace of sleep. I stared at ceiling.

No matter how much i deny i still had a thing for micheal. After he showed up yesterday it felt like i was still in my highschool. These two years have been most difficult time of my life. Thanks to kathrine and my aunt, if not for them i would have been abused my whole life by my father. I don't even want to recall those last six months in texas after exams.

My father got in abusing me again for six painful months. Fortunately aunt contacted me back informing me that she managed to get me an admission into the interior designing course for three years here in Australia. I was ecstatic. And i really owe my success to her. With the help of Katherine she managed to pull some strings and got me into the course.

My mother's beautiful face flashed in front of me. It was like she was here. I wanted to bury my face in her neck and tell her every cruel deed the world did with me. I wanted her to take my pain away.

The unwanted memories started flashing in my mind. The bullying. Those dirty comments. Micheal. Rebeccah. All the emabarassing moments.

Tears flowed freely. My breathing became rapid. Black dots started clouding my vision. I was going to have another panic attack if i don't do something.

I immidiately ran to sink cabinet and started rummaraging for my pills. I quickly gulped two pills with water and closed my eyes to calm myself down.

After calming down a little i went to bed again. I left my past behind but it never left me. I still had nightmares. I still experience sleepless nights many times. Many times i wake up crying in middle of night, convered in hot sweat.

I tried to push everything back in mind and closed my eyes trying to find my sleep.

After so much tossing and turning sleep came to me past 3 am.

Triiiiinnnggggggggg.Triiiiiinnnggggg. Trrriiiinnnngggg.
The loud buzz screeched in my ears making up jolt in bed. I gazed at clock sleepily.

5 AM.

I haven't even got two full hours of sleep. I was in no mood to jog today but i never missed my exercise so i decided to go anyway.