RANTS

Rejection

Author' note:You know one of those times when you feel like you are totally rejected

Like you have no life , nobody wants you , your job application gets rejected all the time , you could not even get into a university of your dreams , you are basically a reject , which trust me is a horrible feeling . I have been going through this all the above written rejections for quite a few months and here is my take on it ; self hate.

A/N - This poem is pretty abstract and quite frankly it's pretty candid.

It might not make sense in the beginning but I hope by the end you get what I am trying to say.

Also this poem contains a lot of self-hate (mild).

So if you feel uncomfortable about it , please do avoid it.

Warning – it could lead to triggers , so please avoid it , if you feel like you can't handle

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REJECTION:

(A note to self)

Sorry to inform you ..

Unfortunately ....

However .........

You didn't ....

You couldn't ...

Not the one ...

Not You...

You can't

You Shall never...

You may never...

You won't ever...

Cause you are not the one,

And you shall never be.

Hope you don't apply next time,

Hoped that you wouldn't apply this time.

You are not smart.

You don't have it.

You are the bully.

Save it !!

Your breath.

Hold it .

Till you burst.

Don't infect others.

YOU are REJECTED .

DEJECTION

REJECTION

STOP IT !

Not meant for this world .

Put down this pen,

It's all in your head.

It's a no brainer that you are a no

Brainer.

Passed into obliviousness .

You are oblivious.

You are oblivious to smartness.

Maybe it's just too much .

Too much like your existence.

Too much is too bad.

Maybe we should end it.

And let's just start with your existence.

You are as fake as the smile you put on.

Maybe as fake as the act you put on .

Maybe as fake as your intelligence

Which is equal to sin0.. ( sin0 = 0 )

Zero as in the things your know.

Zero as in the you will ever know .

Zero as in the people who desire to be with you.

BO-RING

Ringing in your ears .

Ringing in your brain.

Silencing all thoughts .

As the silence of rejection.

Rejection as the only thing that you know

And will know.

Know as in "no" you won't achieve anything in life.

Life as in something you are deprived of.

Brain as in an object that  is useless for you.

"You" as in someone I stare in the mirror.

"You" as in someone I am afraid it.

"Scared" as in the only emotion I ever feel.

Feel as in the emptiness in your head and your heart.

Heart as in something which pumps your blood , blood as in a bloodline which

People would gladly miss you of.

Miss you as in I have lost myself

PART -2

You burned when I smiled .

Maybe it wasn't enough .

The tears I had shed .

Maybe I should burn myself.

It's not like I care.

Come to think about it,

I think nobody will ever care about you.

Care as in the feeling that

Is unknown like

the feeling of being smart.

You are as useless as the brain you

are born with .

Born as in something every one wishes you never did.

You never did as in the things that you didn't do and you never will.

Cause time has gone and you are incapable of turning time ,

Like you are incapable of many things.

Words are failing to express how you fail me.

You are honestly a disappointment ,.

And yes, that's your identity .

People refuse to identify with you,

Scared that the plague of stupidity ,

Might just infect them.

Rejection is the only thing you know ,

That you will ever know ,

That you deserve to know.

But everything's got to stop and let's start with your next breath.

So that people could take a breath of relief of you just being a painful memory .

I hope you rest in peace in the graveyards of stupid.

You never anyhow knew the feeling of being alive ,

Being smart ,

Being informed ,

Being loved ,

Being a brainy ,

The feeling of being accepted.

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Thank You ,

Lot's of Love ,

E