All The Way From Home

chapter 40

Fridaus's pov

It's been a month and Mubarak is still in the coma . I'm hoping it wont take any long from now for him to finally get back

As for my tummy , it's getting bigger than usual as weeks pass by . I've been wondering about the gender
What do I want ?
A boy ? Or A girl ?

"Firdaus what did I say about zoning out huh ?"
This was Halima walking to me with two glass cups and a bottle of zobo roughly held too

We were at the swimming pool area of her house and I couldn't help but think Ahmad really knows the good stuff

"I wasnt halima "
Lie

"You . Are . Not. Capable . Of . Telling . A .good.lie "
She says out each word stressing the lie

Well , I'm not . But its good right ?

"Fine...I was "
I splash the water gently with my leg which was in the pool ,but at the shallow area

"I knew it ai , c'mon drink up "
She said while handling me a glass of zobo

This was all my doing . I don't even understand the way I eat now

"I know it's hard "
I look at her confused

"Its hard that Mubarak is still in the coma "
Oh..now I get it

"Yes , its not a nice feeling halima "
I say while looking at my reflection on the water
I looked so sad , I felt almost empty
I've been so strong with everything that's been going on and I don't think I can hold it back if he doesn't wake up soon

"Its going to be fine firdaus..in shaa Allah you're going to have him back soon "
She said and looked at me and what I saw from it was she was really worried for me

I dragged her into a hug and that's when the waterfalls decided to flow out

"I ca...nt... I can't take it anymore halima "
I say between my sobs and I could feel myself shaking on her body

I felt so tired
I was tired of everything
I needed him so much but he wasnt here
I just can't take it anymore
I feel like I'm dying inside

"Shh..shh..its going to be okay fridaus"
She said while patting my back gently

My sobs started to subside and I couldn't hear myself cry anymore. I could just feel my eyes aching a little bit and I knew my face was already red

"You know , when Mubarak wakes up , it'll be so exciting the way he'll see your stomach all bigger than he last saw it...isn't that great ? I mean it looks like a big huge kwarya (calabash ) now "

She said
And I couldn't help but laugh softly , then I released her from my tight hug

"Way to make me feel better halima..you're making fun of my poor little baby "
I say while feigning hurt

"Yes, your baby is a big fat baby "
She said and we both laugh

She really made me feel better
This girl should totally go for a therapist instead
She'll do very well

...........

"Mrs Mubarak I really can't say he's going to wake up anytime soon or not ...I'm sorry "

I decided to go visit Mubarak, as usual . The doctor had to break such displeasing news to me

I closed my eyes really tight, I didnt want to break down,at least not in the hospital

I opened them at his voice

"Mrs Mubarak. Just put your faith in God , hes going to wake up . We've had patients like this "